Everything is messed up straight from the heart

FYI: The title above is a clean version of "Everything is F'ed up" (if u get it lol).

LYRICS:

I'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus:]
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus]

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
'cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

[chorus x2]

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

Ok, enough with the moody background (which I've changed) and those crappy sad songs. "Gotta pick myself up, where do I start"...it's time for a change. I've removed that person from my friends list, so let's start a new chapter..

Girls' Day - Nothing Lasts Forever (Eng/Rom/Hangul) + performance

..This says everything. Nothing lasts forever..

PS: This is WAAYYY better than their debut song! I love how vocally talented they are :D

...If I were the girl who sings the most at the end I probably would have faint ==.==||

Maybe you do not like something, and that's good for you...

"If u love someone, let it go.. If it comes back to u, it's yours forever.. If it doesn't, then it was never yours!"... Credits to Tira for the sweet post :).

Honestly...I don't know what to feel right now. Should I feel free for not being committed anymore? Or should I feel weak..like a stray cat which was once under good care, but had to be let go? I know...everything happens for a reason. It's just like one of the sentences in Al-Qur'an (credits to Kak Fifi for showing me this~)

"..Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" (2:216)

".. But maybe you do not like something, and that's good for you, and may be you like something, but it is not good for you. Allah knows, and ye know not" (2:216)

The english one, I got it from Google Translate XD. Masha'Allah...for once I want to cry for this beautiful piece of 'poetry' of His 'love letter'... Yet, perhaps I am as heartless as I can be right now. So heartless that I couldn't even shed a tear for Him...? Ya Allah...please help me. Please guide me through this test you have given me. Please protect me from anymore future events like this... I don't want this anymore, not while I'm still studying, not while I'm still naive and innocent, and not while I am still under my parents' guidance and protection...

Although it's only been one week, it was a very nice - brief, but decent week so far... Truly I have never met a guy like him. One who loves to socialize, praise himself (aka egoistic), but at the same time has both his feet on the ground and still remembers Allah.... Yet, if it's true he still remembers Allah, why did he ask me...? Ya Allah...if I really do love You, the One and Only, why did I accept his offer?? Why couldn't I reject someone for once?!

Oh my Lord...help me realize what is truly best for me. For now I could not differentiate what is good and what is bad... I need to wake up and realize my parents' dreams - MY dreams as well...... Still....