i've been down lately...why? don't know...it feels like something is missing...
Last saturday there was a bbq at Ain's house. usually if she does a function, there would be tents and she would invite almost anyone she knows including our former teachers. But this time, I was quite shocked to see how many guests there were. The majority were actually her friends who's studying in Egypt with her. Some took dentistry and others took medicine. Still, I'm a bit shocked as I REALLY don't know them. Thank God Madiha, Adawiyah n Inarah were there. I didn't eat much at first because i had dinner, but...now that i think about it, i think i did eat quite a lot lol. Just slow2 la..
Still, it was really great. I can finally see my school friends after not seeing them for almost a year. It's cute seeing Ain with braces XD. And Nazurah seriously has lost weight! Adawiyah, Inarah and Madiha didn't change (except that Madiha has gone crazier lol). *sigh* I miss the old times. The gossiping, the jokes, the laughing, the crazy stuffs we did back then, and the support we get from each other...i mean, we have been friends since Form 1 or 2. So it's only natural that we're still close... WAHHH!!!! Now i miss school! :'( (of course, I don't miss the homeworks :P)
This Saturday there's supposed to be a reunion (which is actually an alumni meeting) at school, so TK n Fatin will be going. Unfortunately, I won't, because I have to attend a module on that day. So much for timing...and TK is definitely disappointed that I won't come because..well, we tried meeting up together by going to Sunway, but every one of us were always busy. I guess it just wasn't meant to be...
So yeah, like i mentioned earlier, I'm feeling down lately... Part of it might be because I miss them...I just love how simple, laid-back n chilled we were back then. Now everyone is in different paths...The only time that we might even be together again would be after we graduated with a degree.. It's such a looonggg wayy....
Despite that, recently I read a book called 'Mr Good Enough' by Lori Gottlieb. It's about searching for a man who's not a perfect 10, or even a Prince Charming - because there's no such thing as perfect in this world. An 8 would be more than enough. So, in other words, this book is all about how to find a right guy without being too judgemental because - hey, no one's perfect. If you want a guy who looks a Brad Pitt, then don't expect him to have a decent personality. He's probably arrogant and/or selfish, because he might be in love with himself more. I find it very useful but, again, it got me down. Why? Get this....
I
don't
have
a
freaking
BOYFRIEND
yet...
...plus, I've never gone on a date. I would love to try the Western style of dating. You know, get to know each other first, go on a few dates (probably for months), and you won't even need to declare he's your boyfriend, because it will happen naturally. Plus, it's practically normal for a girl to ask a guy out first. In my generation in this country, however, they see things in other way. Okay, not all, but I can still see the stereotype here.. Okay, probably they would start off by getting to know each other first. But after a few weeks or probably just a few days, the guy would declare, or ask her to "couple". In other words, to be his girlfriend.
Just so you know, this kind of trend that I have to live in is really sad. Really, REALLY sad... Because not only the teens these days just ask out whether they want to 'couple' or not, without even going on a single date and not even knowing them well, it's also quite - how do you say this - ASHAMED for girls to ask the guys out, instead of the other way around. Why?? I don't know... It's just too cliched. I mean I thought of a few times whether I want to confess to my crush that I like him, but if this trend is really true then...bummer. Think about how he will think if I confessed my feelings and asked him out. He'd probably feel inferior as his manlihood is being 'challenged' by another gender. Like, honestly, I even heard of my friends said, "It's the guys who should ask/make the first move first."
*sigh* I guess that explains why I'm still single. I want to at least try to make the first move, but this kind of obstacle is really blocking the way. Okay, sure, I don't to ruin my friendship with him and make it seems awkward after i confess, but STILL! I don't wanna be like those single women who either married late or never get married at all even at their 40s. Heck, even my mom kept asking me, "Don't you have a boyfriend at college?" Again, bummer.....
So yeah, that's just my post. Sorry if it seems too messy and disoriented... I mean, I only write just for the sake of vending out my feelings. The modern life is so hard...seriously....
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Another blog i'm STALKING! XD
Well, not really. It's just my sister's blog. And she seemed to post the same thing that I wanna post and she already wrote what I'm gonna write. Hehe, so I hope you enjoy this post:
http://elijojo8989.blogspot.com/2010/07/i-need-girlbad-girl-or-good-girl.html
It's about a new girl band called "Miss A" under JYP's sub-label AQ Entertainment. Before they debut in Korea they were called the Chinese Wonder Girls. But after the members changed (1 of them was Lim who recently joined the Wonder Girls; and 2 left the group), the group doesn't look like their former title after all. Their song is really different than any other girl groups out there. It's not techno and it's not too upbeat. Plus we can hear their vocals very well without the autotune. I highly recommend this group to those who don't like typical girl groups :D
Next is Tae Yang from Big Bang! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! His new song is just CUTE!! Watch the MV with the eng subs and u'll know wat i mean XD <3
http://elijojo8989.blogspot.com/2010/07/i-need-girlbad-girl-or-good-girl.html
It's about a new girl band called "Miss A" under JYP's sub-label AQ Entertainment. Before they debut in Korea they were called the Chinese Wonder Girls. But after the members changed (1 of them was Lim who recently joined the Wonder Girls; and 2 left the group), the group doesn't look like their former title after all. Their song is really different than any other girl groups out there. It's not techno and it's not too upbeat. Plus we can hear their vocals very well without the autotune. I highly recommend this group to those who don't like typical girl groups :D
Next is Tae Yang from Big Bang! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! His new song is just CUTE!! Watch the MV with the eng subs and u'll know wat i mean XD <3
Friday, June 18, 2010
The Tings Tings - We Walk
If you don't know them, they're the ones who sang 'That's Not My Name'. Still don't know? Well...go search them on YouTube ;P. Anyways, this song is unique, as expected from an European group. A getaway for me from all the mainstream songs XD.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Big Bang - Tell Me Goodbye [Translation]
Letting you go...(please somebody)
Letting you go...(please somebody)
No, I got this, yeah
Still I´m thinking about this thing called love
You got me shaken up (please tell me there´s a way)
And it got my head spinnin´ round round round (please tell me there´s a way)
Don´t wanne take a fall, it´s best to rake it all
It´s gonna be better for you, move on, move on (please tell me there´s a way)
Uh uh, we break it, break it or thought we make it, make it
And now we cover it all
Girl, I swear I won´ t even for a second
Cause you any pain
in order to protect you
Because there's no other way
Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
If forgetting me will give you freedom baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Girl, you know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
I wake up crying these words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else
Baby the moment our lips part this time
I´ll never find better, better than you
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being by my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Yo and it´s so, so
Said it just ain´t happening
Wish you could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can´t let go
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn´t live with myself seeing you like
The thing you deserve
Baby you are superb
Always believe that it hurts
That bleeds, that´s word
I think that I can do
My body is just takes a bigger part of me to be letting you go
I wish that weren´t so
Your voice, pained and fading away, away-ay-ay-ay
Erased completly by the wind, stay, stay-ay-ay-ay
All these things, I can´t take it, those tears, don´t cry for me
Or our sake I´ll never look back again. Eh-eh-eh-ain
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being be my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye
PS: Finally, their first R&B song after a long time... I love this song~ It's different than any other break-up songs. Instead of asking the girl to come back to him, he told her to go further away from him, because he doesn't want to see her being hurt even more.. TT.TT Now that's what I call real love...
Credits: http://makikawaii-jklyrics.blogspot.com/2010/06/big-bang-tell-me-goodbye-lyrics.html
Letting you go...(please somebody)
No, I got this, yeah
Still I´m thinking about this thing called love
You got me shaken up (please tell me there´s a way)
And it got my head spinnin´ round round round (please tell me there´s a way)
Don´t wanne take a fall, it´s best to rake it all
It´s gonna be better for you, move on, move on (please tell me there´s a way)
Uh uh, we break it, break it or thought we make it, make it
And now we cover it all
Girl, I swear I won´ t even for a second
Cause you any pain
in order to protect you
Because there's no other way
Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
If forgetting me will give you freedom baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Girl, you know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
I wake up crying these words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else
Baby the moment our lips part this time
I´ll never find better, better than you
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being by my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Yo and it´s so, so
Said it just ain´t happening
Wish you could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can´t let go
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn´t live with myself seeing you like
The thing you deserve
Baby you are superb
Always believe that it hurts
That bleeds, that´s word
I think that I can do
My body is just takes a bigger part of me to be letting you go
I wish that weren´t so
Your voice, pained and fading away, away-ay-ay-ay
Erased completly by the wind, stay, stay-ay-ay-ay
All these things, I can´t take it, those tears, don´t cry for me
Or our sake I´ll never look back again. Eh-eh-eh-ain
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being be my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye
PS: Finally, their first R&B song after a long time... I love this song~ It's different than any other break-up songs. Instead of asking the girl to come back to him, he told her to go further away from him, because he doesn't want to see her being hurt even more.. TT.TT Now that's what I call real love...
Credits: http://makikawaii-jklyrics.blogspot.com/2010/06/big-bang-tell-me-goodbye-lyrics.html
Gummy - As a Man [translation]
A new start is always frightening
But at least this time I truly believe it’s love
Trying to be more happy than my painful separation
You and we should promise eternity and swear on it
But frequent interest may give minor pressures
Might get annoyed of the long calls I don’t want to end
You might call the expanding love, obsession
As time goes by I’m getting smaller
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
You’re next to me but why does my heart feel empty
Why is it that your words “I love you” don’t sound the same as before
the long waits are getting harder and harder
I think of giving up hundreds of times
I feel uneasy and can’t sleep until you fall asleep
I go crazy when I can’t contact you throughout the night
I’m not a woman who expects many things
But I collapse from one of your inattentive words
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
I still feel like when we first met
I flutter in front of your smile
But even these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us
But since you’re a man, since you’re my man I still love you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
PS: This is a reaaallllyyyyy nice song. Do listen to it! :D
PSS: I love Gummy! X3
Credits: http://moonlightunes.wordpress.com/2010/04/30/hangeul-romanized-lyrics-to-gummys-as-a-man/
But at least this time I truly believe it’s love
Trying to be more happy than my painful separation
You and we should promise eternity and swear on it
But frequent interest may give minor pressures
Might get annoyed of the long calls I don’t want to end
You might call the expanding love, obsession
As time goes by I’m getting smaller
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
You’re next to me but why does my heart feel empty
Why is it that your words “I love you” don’t sound the same as before
the long waits are getting harder and harder
I think of giving up hundreds of times
I feel uneasy and can’t sleep until you fall asleep
I go crazy when I can’t contact you throughout the night
I’m not a woman who expects many things
But I collapse from one of your inattentive words
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
I still feel like when we first met
I flutter in front of your smile
But even these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us
But since you’re a man, since you’re my man I still love you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man
PS: This is a reaaallllyyyyy nice song. Do listen to it! :D
PSS: I love Gummy! X3
Credits: http://moonlightunes.wordpress.com/2010/04/30/hangeul-romanized-lyrics-to-gummys-as-a-man/
Monday, June 14, 2010
Yours and I (Park Bom vs. Jason Mraz)
This is so cute!! I love the songs: Jason Mraz's I'm Yours and Park Bom's You and I, but it never occurred to me that both would go together very well! It's mixed by the previous DJ I mentioned (see the previous post). Enjoy~
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Miyavizm~
...oh...em...GEE!!!
It's been so LONG since I'm updated with the J-music world, especially J-Rock. Vamps released 2 singles this year (which are both VERY contrast to each other..), Gackt is involved in another movie project, and Miyavi...MIYAVI!! IS!! MARRIED!!! LAST YEAR!!!!! and guess what? He has a daughter! A FREAKING BABY GIRL!! Only 4 months after his marriage..well, that's expected, but STILL!!!
*ehem* Just so you know, the reason I'm writing in capital letters (aka shouting) is because I'm really surprised, not because of jealousy, hatred bla bla bla. No, not at all. It's because I never expected him to marry so...early? I don't know..it's rare for rockers to marry in their 20s (well, for me la), especially Japanese men when they're all about concentrating on their careers at that particular age..
Anyways, all in all I'm really happy for him. Heck, his wife, Melody, is really pretty! She was a well-known J-pop artist, but retired in 2008 as she wants to focus on becoming a fashion designer. I think she's about the same age as Miyavi, which is yet another surprise, since a married couple usually has a few years of age gap (if not more..). From what I heard from their mutual fans, both seems to have many similarities despite their looks and image. And they seemed to be really happy, especially after they got their first child, Lovelie Miyavi Ishihara. Strange name..I know..but there's a reason behind the name Lovelie, which meant 'The reason of love', or something like that.
I want to post some pics of the happy family but the connection or blogger is messing up --.--+. Really pissed off..
Anyways, Miyavi has released two new songs as well (one in 2009 and another 2010). Here are the two vids respectively. Enjoy~
lol I bet u didn't think I'd listen to these kind of songs. You should have seen or heard my mp3 playlist back when I was 13 or 14! XD Ah, memories~ I think I was much happier back then with my imaginations running wild. Even Kelly Clarkson's "Behind These Hazel Eyes" kept me motivated to write my lotr fanfic. Hehe. Over and out~
PS: Oh, and just to make ur head hurt or spin even more, here's a world tour version of 'Survive' PV. 8D
It's been so LONG since I'm updated with the J-music world, especially J-Rock. Vamps released 2 singles this year (which are both VERY contrast to each other..), Gackt is involved in another movie project, and Miyavi...MIYAVI!! IS!! MARRIED!!! LAST YEAR!!!!! and guess what? He has a daughter! A FREAKING BABY GIRL!! Only 4 months after his marriage..well, that's expected, but STILL!!!
*ehem* Just so you know, the reason I'm writing in capital letters (aka shouting) is because I'm really surprised, not because of jealousy, hatred bla bla bla. No, not at all. It's because I never expected him to marry so...early? I don't know..it's rare for rockers to marry in their 20s (well, for me la), especially Japanese men when they're all about concentrating on their careers at that particular age..
Anyways, all in all I'm really happy for him. Heck, his wife, Melody, is really pretty! She was a well-known J-pop artist, but retired in 2008 as she wants to focus on becoming a fashion designer. I think she's about the same age as Miyavi, which is yet another surprise, since a married couple usually has a few years of age gap (if not more..). From what I heard from their mutual fans, both seems to have many similarities despite their looks and image. And they seemed to be really happy, especially after they got their first child, Lovelie Miyavi Ishihara. Strange name..I know..but there's a reason behind the name Lovelie, which meant 'The reason of love', or something like that.
I want to post some pics of the happy family but the connection or blogger is messing up --.--+. Really pissed off..
Anyways, Miyavi has released two new songs as well (one in 2009 and another 2010). Here are the two vids respectively. Enjoy~
lol I bet u didn't think I'd listen to these kind of songs. You should have seen or heard my mp3 playlist back when I was 13 or 14! XD Ah, memories~ I think I was much happier back then with my imaginations running wild. Even Kelly Clarkson's "Behind These Hazel Eyes" kept me motivated to write my lotr fanfic. Hehe. Over and out~
PS: Oh, and just to make ur head hurt or spin even more, here's a world tour version of 'Survive' PV. 8D
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