I think I'm "Ugly"!

Salaams to my Muslim friends and a very big HOLA to others! :D

Hee~ I haven't updated this blog for a looooonnnng time. Well, it's not that I don't WANT to update this blog - I just DON'T KNOW what to write is all.. Since I'm always never have any ideas what to write, I'll just let the music describe how I'm feeling right now :3. Of course songs will not describe 100% of what I am feeling, but I'm just gonna leave it at that coz I'm really not into exposing my feelings to everyone right now. Enjoy the music y'all~



I think I've mentioned this before, but 2NE1 is my FAVOURITE!!! <3 This is definitely something new from them! Since I was once a rock fan (or to be precise, J-Rock fan), I really love this concept. At least it's something different from the typical clubbing/electro songs. Plus, the lyrics hold a lot of meaning. Sure we sometimes feel ugly or we're just not good enough. Even Teddy (ze producer) said he might've felt very down when he wrote this song. Why? You have to read the english subs to really understand what I'm saying, ya get me??

Anyways, like I said as of today I am not gonna reveal how I really feel like at the current moment, like before (unless I suddenly feel like it and wanting to get out from the shell for once. *gasp* 'get out from the shell'?? ain't that laruku's song??? XD). I'll just let the music do the talking. Peace out y'all! Assalamualaikum..

PS: Omo, almost forgot.. To my Muslim friends, happy fasting and celebrate Ramadhan! (and by 'celebrating' I mean connecting more with Allah and do more sunnahs) Let this Ramadhan be one of your best ones yet :D

Park Bom - You and I (translation)

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I’ll promise you
That I’ll never let you go
Oh~~~Oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Yeah~~~

You, When I fell
you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze
And You, through those sad times
held my hands till the end of the world

[Chorus]
I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes and a smile
I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others
But don’t be sad
Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend
and someone you can lean onto
I promise you that I’ll be right here baby

[Chorus]
I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes
and smile I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again
I no longer fear when your breath holds me
No one in the world can replace you
You are the only one in I’ll be there for you baby

You and I together, It’s just feels so right
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don’t ever let go my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Just you and I
Forever and ever..

PS:...the music video is sweet at first, but the ending was totally sad TT_TT

I lurve 2NE1~~ X3 They're my counsellors...

Love the fanmade remix~



Here's the original version (live) with 'Pretty Boy' at the beginning...

wat da hell...?

Oh dear Lord, how long have I not update this blog XDD.

First of all, I would like to thank my friends in college for giving me one of the most memorable birthdays in my life... At midnight, one of my housemates asked me to go out with her to get some water from the dispenser, but I asked, "Ada apa-apa ke??" Coz I was shit scared that they'd throw flour and/or eggs at me. She said no, so I poked my head out of my room first to see what the others are doing, and they were eating some laksa or something. The coast was clear, so I followed her. Then, when we went back into the house, it was dark inside and I saw a few lit candles on a cake, with my housemates singing Happy Birthday song... I seriously wanted to cry, but I like I said, air mata I jual mahal... At that time as well, my class rep wished me as well through sms. Such a sweet guy X3. And not forgetting my classmate Faezah as well.

Then, the next day, my classmates and I were doing our thing before class as usual. All of the sudden, the whole class started to sing Happy Birthday. It was...quite embarrassing, but I was really happy.

Although I didn't get any presents from them, at least they remember my birthday, and they wished me with sincerity...unlike someone --__--||

Talking about him... my feelings for him have decrease. Why? Don't know...maybe it's because of his insensitiveness towards a lady friend that ticks me off.. What I do know is that I still care for him as friend, and sometimes i see him as brother... But lately, we don't send sms-es to each other like we used to. Probably because both of us are always packed with schedules. I'm cool with that of course.

Haha..I feel so stupid back then when I started to get to know him. I thought, "Oh wow, we're already so close in one day. We might become best friends or something." Ya rite... Reality check, I'm not good in talking with guys, and he's always busy yada yada yada. Plus, I never have a best friend..so what makes me think that I can be best friends with an opposite gender, when I never have a best friend with the same gender??? So to hell of daydreaming about our friendships...I got better friends, I got family that rocks my world, and nothing can change that.

What made me decide on the title of this post...is that I have a really weird dream, but I'll only write the conclusion of that dream... His gf told me to stay away from him. Hm...is that a sign? Probably. Heck, I'm not that close with him anymore. So why the bloody hell would I want to stay away from him when I'm already away from him in the first place?

All of this somehow made me realize why I meet this guy who likes me (LIES), but already has a gf, and why I never have a bf in my entire life... I kept asking Him to give me protection after most of my prayers. That made me question - is this the protection that He has given me? If it is, then I'm grateful that He is protecting me from this unknown world called 'couple'. No matter how much my heart screams to have a partner, I just hope He would protect me from this until I've finish my studies, or when the time comes for me to get a husband. This is for my own good. I repeat, THIS IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!

Oh, I almost forgot. Thanx again to my family who celebrates my birthday last night. We went to Jake's near...Bangsar or Damansara? Haha, I'm bad at geography :P Ooh! And I got a journal from my sis. And it's neat~~ XD Thanx again to my old friends. I miss you guys TT_TT

You got the FIRE!

Okay, it's a little late for me to announce them, but here I go:

2NE1's Fire MV!!!


Street ver. (aka Dance ver.)



Can you spot the 'special' guest??


Space ver. (aka Individual ver.)



I don't know which one I like the best...'cause both MVs are just great!! The song is definitely different - Teddy (the composer) did well in experimenting with reggae beats. And I admit that they're not one of the best-looking girl groups..but at least they have one thing other groups don't have - plastic-free faces, attitude and PURE talent!! Minzy is not ur typical cute Maknae (which I like), Sandara definitely slapped her antis on the faces, Bom is attractive, and CL just ROCKS!

But, like any other MVs/groups, there are still some imperfections. I wish that they didn't digitalized Sandara's voice in her parts - it just makes me wonder how her voice sounds like :( And I wish Bom's face would just relax and not be too tensed in her parts. I think they concentrate a lot on CL, but I don't blame them since it is their first single. I hope the YG composers would concentrate on them as a group in the future.

Whatever it is, I wish them the best, and hopefully they would win #1 in every K-charts as well as winning the best rookie/new group. ;)

lolli lolli lollipop oh~

Finally...the YG girl group has finally shown up!! Looks like Yang Hyun Suk decided to keep the members to 4 instead of 5. Well, who cares, coz they ROCK in this CF with Big Bang!! And here's the full version of the song:



From left to right (and from youngest to oldest): Gong Minji (supposedly the best dancer in the group), CL (Chaerim) the rapper, Park Sandara the one who sings the intro, and Park Bom the one who sings the chorus (no, they're not related, just happen to have the same family name). The group's official name is now changed to "21 (2NE1)", due to the same name with another artist, "21 (toanyone)". Well, we can't blame Yang Hyun Suk since he's a busy man

I can't wait for their official debut!!! X3