events~

I wanted to publish a new post last week, but i kept delaying it because i have weird illnesses... Gastric, low blood, n there's one little lump at the back of my neck (which probably explains y i keep getting headaches..). Anyways, let's just continue with wat i'm gonna write last week!!

25th August...It's not my birthday, but it's definitely the date that I'll make sure to remember for the rest of my life! :D

I went to Kolej Alamanda to break fast with my college friends at one of the warungs (which is just outside of the college). I didn't think many would turn up - but there were. Shockingly O_o. But even with the long table outside, it was still packed. Even some of them had to be separated from us and eat inside.. I'm really sorry guys TT_TT.

The original plan was to break fast in Mid Valley this week, but none of them are free on other days except Friday. But on that day, I'm gonna have dinner with my family..which is for my birthday. They originally planned to make a farewell party on that day... TT.TT

Well, ok, at first I asked my mom about it whether we can change the dinner to an earlier date, and she said it was ok for her. But then my bro won't be free on Thursday. And I thought that it won't be fun if we leave him out of it, so I told them let's just continue with the plan.. After that, my friends and I were almost in a dilemma on how to decide the date. Then Emma told me that we should just break fast at one of the warungs..so we went with that instead. But I really wanted to go to Mid Valley with them...

Anyways, here are the presents that they gave me~

Blanket given by my 'sisters'~ thank u so so much girls! I'll definitely use this on cold days :D

Syimir gave me this~ hehe. He thinks this one's cute (but i think it's ugly XD). Still, it's sweet of him to give me this. Thanks~ (it's even sweeter with his perfume on it lol)

Farisha gave me some chocolates for me to eat on the plane. Hehe, very considerate of her~ Plus, Mu'i, Ja'ar and Azraii gave me duit raya. So cute~ X3 I love u people!! I almost cried..no, really. I did. Especially after I saw Atira's tears welling up in her eyes. I'm like, "Oh, s**t. Please don't cry!!" Then when I was about to get ready, Shiqin shouted to me, "Don't cry! Otherwise I'll cry too!!" Um...ok, nice advice? XD jk~

Seriously though, I mean... there will be at times when you feel like you don't belong here. But then at times like this, you'll wonder - what did I do to deserve all of this love?? I mean, I don't think I contributed much to them. I pulled out of JPK, I don't talk much, and I'm not smart n skilled enough to teach them the subjects that they don't know... So, yeah...it really makes u wonder... But I'm really, really glad to have great friends like them. Again, I love you guys very much!! <3 <3

And yes...I finally let go of my grudge. If I hadn't even glance at him I wouldn't even realize he had wave at me. Like, seriously dude. You have a voice...at least shout "Bye" or "Good luck" or something.. ==___==|| Well, I waved back anyways... When I think about it, it's somewhat stupid of me to get myself in this mess in the first place...

Hehe. But then something weird (but expected) happened on my birthday... Gastric AND low blood pressure ==__==||. Way to start my day... I guess that explains why I keep feeling light-headed + headache this whole time... Anyways, yeah. So the doctor said I couldn't fast n when we got home, my mom straight away toasted some bread n made milo for me (even though it was afternoon. but there was nothing for me to eat except the stuffs you would eat for breakfast..) She already suspected that I got low blood like a loooonnngg time ago - I just didn't want to accept that fact XD. NOW I can say I have low blood... *sigh* why is this happening to me..?

Well, illnesses aside.. We went to Tony Roma's for my birthday dinner~ And yes, my mom forced me to eat a lot on that night (which I did but...it turned out it's actually not good for low-blood people), so I was freaking full.. Thank God we went walking after that. Ezhan and Kakak gave me a trench coat as a present (which I always wanted since..I played a fashion game lol)...actually, more like Kakak recommended Ezhan to buy that one. But he didn't know what a trench coat was - thank God his fiancee was with him XD. He told me to wear it just in case it fits or not. When we got to the store - luckily my parents were experienced with winter clothing.. turns out the size he bought was a size smaller. So we exchanged with a bigger size n walla!

Hee~ thank u guys! :D

So ya, I guess that's about it... omo, last Saturday there was a breaking fast with the whole family at my house. It's not as hyped or loud as it used to be, but it was still fun - especially when we get to see the babies' stunts and all. Aww...cute little munchkins!! X3 But, to my horror...Mama called everyone to sing me n Eli happy birthday. Thank God most of the men and some women went for Terawih at that time... So yeah, move along! XD Oh, and I finally got on my piano for God knows why... Still, it was a great feeling again. Some of my cousins were impressed I could play some of the Playhouse Disney's songs, ie Dibo dibo ding, Little Einsteins n so on~ (yes. I watch Playhouse Disney with my niece n nephew. Got problem with that?!) But...meh. They're just simple melodies. If you're asking me to play a Chopin piece or Alicia Keys song, then I'll definitely flunk out XD.

For toda-ay~ I just got back from Kedah, just to see Mak Tok one last time before departing.. Hm...I wonder why my mind's still not registered that I'm gonna go to UK. lol For God's sake, woman! You're going to UK in another 2 weeks!!!

Over and out...

wat da hell...?

Oh dear Lord, how long have I not update this blog XDD.

First of all, I would like to thank my friends in college for giving me one of the most memorable birthdays in my life... At midnight, one of my housemates asked me to go out with her to get some water from the dispenser, but I asked, "Ada apa-apa ke??" Coz I was shit scared that they'd throw flour and/or eggs at me. She said no, so I poked my head out of my room first to see what the others are doing, and they were eating some laksa or something. The coast was clear, so I followed her. Then, when we went back into the house, it was dark inside and I saw a few lit candles on a cake, with my housemates singing Happy Birthday song... I seriously wanted to cry, but I like I said, air mata I jual mahal... At that time as well, my class rep wished me as well through sms. Such a sweet guy X3. And not forgetting my classmate Faezah as well.

Then, the next day, my classmates and I were doing our thing before class as usual. All of the sudden, the whole class started to sing Happy Birthday. It was...quite embarrassing, but I was really happy.

Although I didn't get any presents from them, at least they remember my birthday, and they wished me with sincerity...unlike someone --__--||

Talking about him... my feelings for him have decrease. Why? Don't know...maybe it's because of his insensitiveness towards a lady friend that ticks me off.. What I do know is that I still care for him as friend, and sometimes i see him as brother... But lately, we don't send sms-es to each other like we used to. Probably because both of us are always packed with schedules. I'm cool with that of course.

Haha..I feel so stupid back then when I started to get to know him. I thought, "Oh wow, we're already so close in one day. We might become best friends or something." Ya rite... Reality check, I'm not good in talking with guys, and he's always busy yada yada yada. Plus, I never have a best friend..so what makes me think that I can be best friends with an opposite gender, when I never have a best friend with the same gender??? So to hell of daydreaming about our friendships...I got better friends, I got family that rocks my world, and nothing can change that.

What made me decide on the title of this post...is that I have a really weird dream, but I'll only write the conclusion of that dream... His gf told me to stay away from him. Hm...is that a sign? Probably. Heck, I'm not that close with him anymore. So why the bloody hell would I want to stay away from him when I'm already away from him in the first place?

All of this somehow made me realize why I meet this guy who likes me (LIES), but already has a gf, and why I never have a bf in my entire life... I kept asking Him to give me protection after most of my prayers. That made me question - is this the protection that He has given me? If it is, then I'm grateful that He is protecting me from this unknown world called 'couple'. No matter how much my heart screams to have a partner, I just hope He would protect me from this until I've finish my studies, or when the time comes for me to get a husband. This is for my own good. I repeat, THIS IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!

Oh, I almost forgot. Thanx again to my family who celebrates my birthday last night. We went to Jake's near...Bangsar or Damansara? Haha, I'm bad at geography :P Ooh! And I got a journal from my sis. And it's neat~~ XD Thanx again to my old friends. I miss you guys TT_TT

Happy birthday dear Okasan~~ X3

16th April. It was my mother's birthday. We celebrated at Victoria Station for dinner.. well, not much actually happened, but she did get a diamond ring from my sis (she looked at Papa and said, "Ha, Pa, tengok!" Meaning: "You have to buy me one also" XD)

Hm.. well the food was ok, but just dat.

On Tuesday, Mama, Eli and I went to Alamanda to watch Talentime. The story was simple, but very interesting. In this movie, Yasmin Ahmad focused more onto the racial problems between Indians and Malay, but it was really funny watching the Indians making jokes. But dang~~ The Indian protagonist was damn good-looking! Even Eli agrees!! Though, the female protagonist (the one from Amazing Race Asia, as well as younger sister of Vincent AF1) doesn't seem fit here, coz she seems...old. But what's funny was when Adibah Noor's character saw her, she said, "Betul ke dia ni Form 5? Nampak cam mak orang je..." XDD

Well, it was a good movie nonetheless. But my mom wasn't quite fond of it because the ending was hanging - it didn't even mention who won the Talentime, or what happened to Mahesh (it's actually his real name! lol) and Melur. Nonetheless, it was really another masterpiece of Yasmin Ahmad. And compared to the previous movies, it involves many musical backgrounds. The song 'O Re Piya (My love)' really caught my attention, that I even looked at the translation lyrics intentively.