events~

I wanted to publish a new post last week, but i kept delaying it because i have weird illnesses... Gastric, low blood, n there's one little lump at the back of my neck (which probably explains y i keep getting headaches..). Anyways, let's just continue with wat i'm gonna write last week!!

25th August...It's not my birthday, but it's definitely the date that I'll make sure to remember for the rest of my life! :D

I went to Kolej Alamanda to break fast with my college friends at one of the warungs (which is just outside of the college). I didn't think many would turn up - but there were. Shockingly O_o. But even with the long table outside, it was still packed. Even some of them had to be separated from us and eat inside.. I'm really sorry guys TT_TT.

The original plan was to break fast in Mid Valley this week, but none of them are free on other days except Friday. But on that day, I'm gonna have dinner with my family..which is for my birthday. They originally planned to make a farewell party on that day... TT.TT

Well, ok, at first I asked my mom about it whether we can change the dinner to an earlier date, and she said it was ok for her. But then my bro won't be free on Thursday. And I thought that it won't be fun if we leave him out of it, so I told them let's just continue with the plan.. After that, my friends and I were almost in a dilemma on how to decide the date. Then Emma told me that we should just break fast at one of the warungs..so we went with that instead. But I really wanted to go to Mid Valley with them...

Anyways, here are the presents that they gave me~

Blanket given by my 'sisters'~ thank u so so much girls! I'll definitely use this on cold days :D

Syimir gave me this~ hehe. He thinks this one's cute (but i think it's ugly XD). Still, it's sweet of him to give me this. Thanks~ (it's even sweeter with his perfume on it lol)

Farisha gave me some chocolates for me to eat on the plane. Hehe, very considerate of her~ Plus, Mu'i, Ja'ar and Azraii gave me duit raya. So cute~ X3 I love u people!! I almost cried..no, really. I did. Especially after I saw Atira's tears welling up in her eyes. I'm like, "Oh, s**t. Please don't cry!!" Then when I was about to get ready, Shiqin shouted to me, "Don't cry! Otherwise I'll cry too!!" Um...ok, nice advice? XD jk~

Seriously though, I mean... there will be at times when you feel like you don't belong here. But then at times like this, you'll wonder - what did I do to deserve all of this love?? I mean, I don't think I contributed much to them. I pulled out of JPK, I don't talk much, and I'm not smart n skilled enough to teach them the subjects that they don't know... So, yeah...it really makes u wonder... But I'm really, really glad to have great friends like them. Again, I love you guys very much!! <3 <3

And yes...I finally let go of my grudge. If I hadn't even glance at him I wouldn't even realize he had wave at me. Like, seriously dude. You have a voice...at least shout "Bye" or "Good luck" or something.. ==___==|| Well, I waved back anyways... When I think about it, it's somewhat stupid of me to get myself in this mess in the first place...

Hehe. But then something weird (but expected) happened on my birthday... Gastric AND low blood pressure ==__==||. Way to start my day... I guess that explains why I keep feeling light-headed + headache this whole time... Anyways, yeah. So the doctor said I couldn't fast n when we got home, my mom straight away toasted some bread n made milo for me (even though it was afternoon. but there was nothing for me to eat except the stuffs you would eat for breakfast..) She already suspected that I got low blood like a loooonnngg time ago - I just didn't want to accept that fact XD. NOW I can say I have low blood... *sigh* why is this happening to me..?

Well, illnesses aside.. We went to Tony Roma's for my birthday dinner~ And yes, my mom forced me to eat a lot on that night (which I did but...it turned out it's actually not good for low-blood people), so I was freaking full.. Thank God we went walking after that. Ezhan and Kakak gave me a trench coat as a present (which I always wanted since..I played a fashion game lol)...actually, more like Kakak recommended Ezhan to buy that one. But he didn't know what a trench coat was - thank God his fiancee was with him XD. He told me to wear it just in case it fits or not. When we got to the store - luckily my parents were experienced with winter clothing.. turns out the size he bought was a size smaller. So we exchanged with a bigger size n walla!

Hee~ thank u guys! :D

So ya, I guess that's about it... omo, last Saturday there was a breaking fast with the whole family at my house. It's not as hyped or loud as it used to be, but it was still fun - especially when we get to see the babies' stunts and all. Aww...cute little munchkins!! X3 But, to my horror...Mama called everyone to sing me n Eli happy birthday. Thank God most of the men and some women went for Terawih at that time... So yeah, move along! XD Oh, and I finally got on my piano for God knows why... Still, it was a great feeling again. Some of my cousins were impressed I could play some of the Playhouse Disney's songs, ie Dibo dibo ding, Little Einsteins n so on~ (yes. I watch Playhouse Disney with my niece n nephew. Got problem with that?!) But...meh. They're just simple melodies. If you're asking me to play a Chopin piece or Alicia Keys song, then I'll definitely flunk out XD.

For toda-ay~ I just got back from Kedah, just to see Mak Tok one last time before departing.. Hm...I wonder why my mind's still not registered that I'm gonna go to UK. lol For God's sake, woman! You're going to UK in another 2 weeks!!!

Over and out...

Alhamdulillah~~

I finally got Actuarial Science in Shah Alam and will start this 27th June. Most of my friends have gone to their respective universities/matriks and already gone through the orientations...and this quite scares me a bit O_O||. According to one of my classmates, who've gone to UiTM in Kuantan (if I'm not wrong), only slept for like...what, 3-4 hours?!?! >_<|| She didn't even have time to even take a shower or even eat! I really wonder how I can survive there...especially since I'm such a heavy sleeper @_@

Apart from that, I find it funny that my mom and sis were more excited than me when they heard I got actuarial science... Of course I'm excited, but at the same time I'm nervous about college life there.

Decided!!...yet still in dilemma

..For other stuffs XDD Um..yeah, so I decided to just go with actuarial science. They (my bro n sis) might have a point that I'd get bored with quantitative science...Why? Because I freaking love maths and calculating, so I love challenging calculations (weird, I know, but somehow I never get angered with Add Maths, so that proves it..) Plus, it's a field where not many people are in, so it's quite unique~~ X3

Anyways, apart from that....I'm having problems with my fiction for God's sake! =__=|| I'm having problem on...what should I write next??? Even though I've reached chapter 10, I somehow felt like chapter 7's a bit weird and wanted to repair it...but I just got stuck!! So anyone (you know who you are), ideas are welcomed...especially when the protagonist was about to meet the F4 for the first time...

PS: Not the F4 that has Oguri Shun or HyunJoon or watever their names are. I just like to nickname my 4 OCs like that XP

Yet...another dilemma...

Okay...so I got offered diploma in quantitative science course in uitm...though I'm not sure which campus yet. But...everyone kept saying that I should go for actuarial science instead TT_TT I'm so confused!! I mean, both courses have mathematics, and I love maths but... Okay, let me make a comparison between the two.

Quantitative Science:
1. It's more towards computer subjects
2. According to the course outline, there's only basic maths in semester 1, and will only start learning calculus in semester 2.
3. There's no practical, thus there are elective subjects available.
4. The programmes are more spread out, so this course is more relaxing.

Actuarial Science:
1. It's more towards insurance/bank/business subjects (it even has basic entrepreneurship)
2. Right from semester 1 there's already calculus
3. There's a practical in semester 6, so no elective subjects available (except, maybe, in semester 4).
4. The programmes are mostly stuffed into semester 3 and semester 5, so that means not much relaxing to do in this course.

...I'm seriously confused. I mean, sure Diploma in Actuarial Science is a good training for me, but I'm afraid that it's too challenging for me. My sis and mom said I can do it, but...I don't know...Ugh!! This is so not me! >_<|| I seriously need some help... TT_TT

My future...I wonder...

At first, I was in a bit of dilemma, because I was confused like...should I take actuarial science? Maybe finance? Or accounting? Should I take diploma or pre-U? Wat da heck do I really want?! My parents n sis once said that at my level, I shouldn't take diploma. But what's wrong with diploma? Why do they say it's wasting my time, when I knew that I really do want to do those actuarial or quantitative science, which is only available in diplomas?? *sigh* I almost felt like I want to burst out, until my bro came back yesterday (out of the blue --_--|| he never calls that he'd be back or not).

He said, "Actuarial science in UiTM is the most distinguished. The products from that U and course would get 5 digits for their pay slips." Well, he already told me about it, since the sister of his friend took that course and got RM10000+ for her first job, which got me interested in the first place. Then my mom kept saying I should do accounting, but I thought, "Eli kan buat accounting. We don't need another accountant in the family!" Okay, lame excuse, and I know that accountants have also nice digits in their pay slips. But I do notice that all of my siblings...never study the same course. And none of them follow my parents. Heck, even my cousins mostly study different courses. So I don't want to follow any of their footsteps. I want to do what I want to do, Goddamnit! >_<|| So, again, thank God my bro was here yesterday. His explanations have really convinced my whole family, and my mom was like, "Ah, ok la. At least kat UiTM free education." =__=|| And my sis, "Ha, nanti Eza kerja dapat pay slip kasi la kakak sikit!" ==____==|||| Hehe, but at least they support me. But another dilemma...should I apply to go to Japan or not?... Coz I'm sure I'm not qualified to go to English-speaking countries. My first bro, who was the only one among my siblings to study overseas, said, "You don't need to choose based on the courses that you want. Just go there to get experience." Japan mainly has engineering courses but...I don't want to do engineering. Even my sis said I'm not engineering material type (watever dat is...but u get the point). And I don't want to go back to those science stuffs...unless if I have to. And even though I'm learning Japanese, the Kanji (Chinese characters) are tough like HELL! Even my teacher said there are around 3000@2000 kanjis to hafal for Japanese!!! @_@ And if that ain't enough, if I really do want to study science stuffs there, I have to learn the science terms in Japanese. @@___@@ *sigh* Well, all we can do is just wait right now. My parents kept asking me what my friends have chosen, but I was like, "I also don't know..." But I do know that TK wants to do TESL or nutrition, coz they don't involve maths much. And Fatin wants to do farmasi, since she likes chemistry stuffs. So...whatever courses that are given to us, let's just do our best!! XD