Monday, August 31, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
wat da hell...?
Oh dear Lord, how long have I not update this blog XDD.
First of all, I would like to thank my friends in college for giving me one of the most memorable birthdays in my life... At midnight, one of my housemates asked me to go out with her to get some water from the dispenser, but I asked, "Ada apa-apa ke??" Coz I was shit scared that they'd throw flour and/or eggs at me. She said no, so I poked my head out of my room first to see what the others are doing, and they were eating some laksa or something. The coast was clear, so I followed her. Then, when we went back into the house, it was dark inside and I saw a few lit candles on a cake, with my housemates singing Happy Birthday song... I seriously wanted to cry, but I like I said, air mata I jual mahal... At that time as well, my class rep wished me as well through sms. Such a sweet guy X3. And not forgetting my classmate Faezah as well.
Then, the next day, my classmates and I were doing our thing before class as usual. All of the sudden, the whole class started to sing Happy Birthday. It was...quite embarrassing, but I was really happy.
Although I didn't get any presents from them, at least they remember my birthday, and they wished me with sincerity...unlike someone --__--||
Talking about him... my feelings for him have decrease. Why? Don't know...maybe it's because of his insensitiveness towards a lady friend that ticks me off.. What I do know is that I still care for him as friend, and sometimes i see him as brother... But lately, we don't send sms-es to each other like we used to. Probably because both of us are always packed with schedules. I'm cool with that of course.
Haha..I feel so stupid back then when I started to get to know him. I thought, "Oh wow, we're already so close in one day. We might become best friends or something." Ya rite... Reality check, I'm not good in talking with guys, and he's always busy yada yada yada. Plus, I never have a best friend..so what makes me think that I can be best friends with an opposite gender, when I never have a best friend with the same gender??? So to hell of daydreaming about our friendships...I got better friends, I got family that rocks my world, and nothing can change that.
What made me decide on the title of this post...is that I have a really weird dream, but I'll only write the conclusion of that dream... His gf told me to stay away from him. Hm...is that a sign? Probably. Heck, I'm not that close with him anymore. So why the bloody hell would I want to stay away from him when I'm already away from him in the first place?
All of this somehow made me realize why I meet this guy who likes me (LIES), but already has a gf, and why I never have a bf in my entire life... I kept asking Him to give me protection after most of my prayers. That made me question - is this the protection that He has given me? If it is, then I'm grateful that He is protecting me from this unknown world called 'couple'. No matter how much my heart screams to have a partner, I just hope He would protect me from this until I've finish my studies, or when the time comes for me to get a husband. This is for my own good. I repeat, THIS IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!
Oh, I almost forgot. Thanx again to my family who celebrates my birthday last night. We went to Jake's near...Bangsar or Damansara? Haha, I'm bad at geography :P Ooh! And I got a journal from my sis. And it's neat~~ XD Thanx again to my old friends. I miss you guys TT_TT
First of all, I would like to thank my friends in college for giving me one of the most memorable birthdays in my life... At midnight, one of my housemates asked me to go out with her to get some water from the dispenser, but I asked, "Ada apa-apa ke??" Coz I was shit scared that they'd throw flour and/or eggs at me. She said no, so I poked my head out of my room first to see what the others are doing, and they were eating some laksa or something. The coast was clear, so I followed her. Then, when we went back into the house, it was dark inside and I saw a few lit candles on a cake, with my housemates singing Happy Birthday song... I seriously wanted to cry, but I like I said, air mata I jual mahal... At that time as well, my class rep wished me as well through sms. Such a sweet guy X3. And not forgetting my classmate Faezah as well.
Then, the next day, my classmates and I were doing our thing before class as usual. All of the sudden, the whole class started to sing Happy Birthday. It was...quite embarrassing, but I was really happy.
Although I didn't get any presents from them, at least they remember my birthday, and they wished me with sincerity...unlike someone --__--||
Talking about him... my feelings for him have decrease. Why? Don't know...maybe it's because of his insensitiveness towards a lady friend that ticks me off.. What I do know is that I still care for him as friend, and sometimes i see him as brother... But lately, we don't send sms-es to each other like we used to. Probably because both of us are always packed with schedules. I'm cool with that of course.
Haha..I feel so stupid back then when I started to get to know him. I thought, "Oh wow, we're already so close in one day. We might become best friends or something." Ya rite... Reality check, I'm not good in talking with guys, and he's always busy yada yada yada. Plus, I never have a best friend..so what makes me think that I can be best friends with an opposite gender, when I never have a best friend with the same gender??? So to hell of daydreaming about our friendships...I got better friends, I got family that rocks my world, and nothing can change that.
What made me decide on the title of this post...is that I have a really weird dream, but I'll only write the conclusion of that dream... His gf told me to stay away from him. Hm...is that a sign? Probably. Heck, I'm not that close with him anymore. So why the bloody hell would I want to stay away from him when I'm already away from him in the first place?
All of this somehow made me realize why I meet this guy who likes me (LIES), but already has a gf, and why I never have a bf in my entire life... I kept asking Him to give me protection after most of my prayers. That made me question - is this the protection that He has given me? If it is, then I'm grateful that He is protecting me from this unknown world called 'couple'. No matter how much my heart screams to have a partner, I just hope He would protect me from this until I've finish my studies, or when the time comes for me to get a husband. This is for my own good. I repeat, THIS IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!
Oh, I almost forgot. Thanx again to my family who celebrates my birthday last night. We went to Jake's near...Bangsar or Damansara? Haha, I'm bad at geography :P Ooh! And I got a journal from my sis. And it's neat~~ XD Thanx again to my old friends. I miss you guys TT_TT
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