Maybe you do not like something, and that's good for you...

"If u love someone, let it go.. If it comes back to u, it's yours forever.. If it doesn't, then it was never yours!"... Credits to Tira for the sweet post :).

Honestly...I don't know what to feel right now. Should I feel free for not being committed anymore? Or should I feel weak..like a stray cat which was once under good care, but had to be let go? I know...everything happens for a reason. It's just like one of the sentences in Al-Qur'an (credits to Kak Fifi for showing me this~)

"..Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" (2:216)

".. But maybe you do not like something, and that's good for you, and may be you like something, but it is not good for you. Allah knows, and ye know not" (2:216)

The english one, I got it from Google Translate XD. Masha'Allah...for once I want to cry for this beautiful piece of 'poetry' of His 'love letter'... Yet, perhaps I am as heartless as I can be right now. So heartless that I couldn't even shed a tear for Him...? Ya Allah...please help me. Please guide me through this test you have given me. Please protect me from anymore future events like this... I don't want this anymore, not while I'm still studying, not while I'm still naive and innocent, and not while I am still under my parents' guidance and protection...

Although it's only been one week, it was a very nice - brief, but decent week so far... Truly I have never met a guy like him. One who loves to socialize, praise himself (aka egoistic), but at the same time has both his feet on the ground and still remembers Allah.... Yet, if it's true he still remembers Allah, why did he ask me...? Ya Allah...if I really do love You, the One and Only, why did I accept his offer?? Why couldn't I reject someone for once?!

Oh my Lord...help me realize what is truly best for me. For now I could not differentiate what is good and what is bad... I need to wake up and realize my parents' dreams - MY dreams as well...... Still....

TAG

This one's from Tira aka Kak Long yg tersayang~~ thank u my sweet chocolate! ;D

1. Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup korang?

for sure my family...after them, my frenz. n after them ...... :D

2. Benda terakhir korang beli guna duit sendiri?

Body Shop....PERGH! first time splurge abis XD (eh tp ada diskaun! so kire saving gak :P)

3. Dimana tempat korang nak melangsungkan perkahwinan korang dan tema perkahwinan korang nanti?

ooh la la~~...hm, x terpikir lg. kalau blh nak buat kat masjid je, tp org tu nak buat kat hotel soooooo kene buat la grand skit on our side XD. i've seen my bro's wedding pics n absolutely love the dewan kat UPM tu!! yg tema tu i just leave it to my sis (the usual wedding/party planner), tp kalau blh nak keep it simple but sweet :)

4. Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

ahaha...bru permulaan kot :P

5. Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

insyaAllah sampai mati atau eternity sampai ke syurga :)

6. Dimana korang selalu jumpa kekasih korang?

hm..byk terserempak ada la XD. dlm uni atau kat town

7. Novel/buku/majalah terakhir korang beli?

three to be exact: one is about mathematics (forgot the title), Shadowmagic (very brief but interesting fantasy story), n Mr. Good Enough (I love this book!! It's about telling single women especially the, er, old ones, to stop looking for Mr. Perfect n instead stick with the Mr. Good Enough :D)

8. Apakah nama penuh korang?

Ezanin Johanna Binti Elias

9. Antara mak dengan ayah korang, yang mana korang lagi mesra?

Mama~~ she's basically like our best friend. The first person to tell our good news, the first person to go to when we're in trouble - she's just everything to us, our supermom :)

10. Namakan orang yang betul2 nak jumpa dalam hidup?

my family...huaaaaaa :(

11. Adakah korang basuh baju sendiri?

ya. masuk laundry sudeyh (xde baldi kot jual kat sini...kalau ada pon jauh n malu nak bwk dlm bas --.--||)

12. Di mana tempat yang korang betul2 nak pergi?

anywhere with family~ i've been to Makkah, alhamdulillah..so when the right time comes i want to go to Hajj :)

13. Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?

Hug usually. But with the right people i'll kiss (on their cheeks la)

14. Beritahu 3 perkara tentang orang yang tag korang?

Atira,

i. so so kind

ii. so so ayu n pretty~

iii. and so so byk mulut!! lol I love u darling~ ;)

15. 5 benda yang korang sayang dalam hidup korang?

banyak! 5 je eh?

i. family family FAMILY!! they're always gonna be the first~

ii. my frenz frm high school n uitm...i srsly miss my sem 1 roommates :(

iii. my laptop

iv. handphone..it's a must!

v. somewhere~ over the rainbow~~ lol ada laa~~~

16. 5 lagu korang suka dan selalu dengar?

banyaaaak sgt weih...tp yg latest ones:

i. Bbiribbom Bberibbom by Co-Ed

ii. Details in the Fabric by Jason Mraz feat. James Morrison (i love this duo!)

iii. 2NE1~ SEMUA lagu dorg! :D

iv. I'll Be Back by 2PM

v. Brandon Hines - hasn't officially debut yet, so he's considered an indie R&B singer for now

17. Bila Tarikh lahir korang dan korang sambut birthday kat mana tahun lepas?

27th August 1991.. omg, i remember my housemates surprised me with the birthday song and a cake...i almost cried but i didn't lol Still it was really touching...I miss those days :( (oh, and I remember sha n kira putting cake cream on my face lol Thanx A LOT guys)

18. 7 orang blogger korang nak tag?

i. Sha al-Idrus

ii. Ili Liyana

iii. Ezliani Johanna

iv. Afiqah Amirullah

v. Mohd. ar-Rauf

vi. Ulfah Nafis

vii. Aiman Toreq

19. Cerita sikit pasal blogger pertama korang tag?

sharifah..be strong ok. I know ur stronger than u think, and I know ur more worth it to get a great guy. Allah Maha Mengetahui...kalau Sha buat baik, dpt jaga diri elok2, insyaAllah Sha akan jumpa jodoh yg dpt jaga Sha sebaik2 mungkin (kalau x aku sepak teranjang jantan tu!! :P) I love u so so much my baby sister~~

PS: sorry la ek kalau ada nama sesape yg spelling n tatabahasa yg agak fail :P. TAG TAG!!

D-day!!

The day has finally come... I'll departing to UK tonight at 9.30. Time flies so fast... Somehow I still couldn't believe that I'm gonna go overseas... I'm really nervous, yet excited at the same time. So nervous + excitement = ....blur?? lol Idk whether I should cry or jump in excitement...

I'm looking forward to the orientation and induction week! The orientation for international students starts after we arrive there, which is on the 16th, only for a few days.. It's mainly about meeting up and getting to know each other. Welcome disco, BBQ, campus tour, shopping @ sports, day trip (Oxford or Stratford-upon-Avon [Shakespeare's birthplace!]), just to name a few lol. And on induction week, it's called the Fresher's Fayre week... to me though, it's more like an Entertainment Fayre week!! There'll be lots of parties (even on midnight!), art classes like pottery and dancing (hip-hop and oh salsa!) and free movie nights! lol I think I'm really gonna enjoy myself there. keke~

I'll publish my next post over there when I have free time. Huh...I still can't believe I'm going XD. Well, over and out!

events~

I wanted to publish a new post last week, but i kept delaying it because i have weird illnesses... Gastric, low blood, n there's one little lump at the back of my neck (which probably explains y i keep getting headaches..). Anyways, let's just continue with wat i'm gonna write last week!!

25th August...It's not my birthday, but it's definitely the date that I'll make sure to remember for the rest of my life! :D

I went to Kolej Alamanda to break fast with my college friends at one of the warungs (which is just outside of the college). I didn't think many would turn up - but there were. Shockingly O_o. But even with the long table outside, it was still packed. Even some of them had to be separated from us and eat inside.. I'm really sorry guys TT_TT.

The original plan was to break fast in Mid Valley this week, but none of them are free on other days except Friday. But on that day, I'm gonna have dinner with my family..which is for my birthday. They originally planned to make a farewell party on that day... TT.TT

Well, ok, at first I asked my mom about it whether we can change the dinner to an earlier date, and she said it was ok for her. But then my bro won't be free on Thursday. And I thought that it won't be fun if we leave him out of it, so I told them let's just continue with the plan.. After that, my friends and I were almost in a dilemma on how to decide the date. Then Emma told me that we should just break fast at one of the warungs..so we went with that instead. But I really wanted to go to Mid Valley with them...

Anyways, here are the presents that they gave me~

Blanket given by my 'sisters'~ thank u so so much girls! I'll definitely use this on cold days :D

Syimir gave me this~ hehe. He thinks this one's cute (but i think it's ugly XD). Still, it's sweet of him to give me this. Thanks~ (it's even sweeter with his perfume on it lol)

Farisha gave me some chocolates for me to eat on the plane. Hehe, very considerate of her~ Plus, Mu'i, Ja'ar and Azraii gave me duit raya. So cute~ X3 I love u people!! I almost cried..no, really. I did. Especially after I saw Atira's tears welling up in her eyes. I'm like, "Oh, s**t. Please don't cry!!" Then when I was about to get ready, Shiqin shouted to me, "Don't cry! Otherwise I'll cry too!!" Um...ok, nice advice? XD jk~

Seriously though, I mean... there will be at times when you feel like you don't belong here. But then at times like this, you'll wonder - what did I do to deserve all of this love?? I mean, I don't think I contributed much to them. I pulled out of JPK, I don't talk much, and I'm not smart n skilled enough to teach them the subjects that they don't know... So, yeah...it really makes u wonder... But I'm really, really glad to have great friends like them. Again, I love you guys very much!! <3 <3

And yes...I finally let go of my grudge. If I hadn't even glance at him I wouldn't even realize he had wave at me. Like, seriously dude. You have a voice...at least shout "Bye" or "Good luck" or something.. ==___==|| Well, I waved back anyways... When I think about it, it's somewhat stupid of me to get myself in this mess in the first place...

Hehe. But then something weird (but expected) happened on my birthday... Gastric AND low blood pressure ==__==||. Way to start my day... I guess that explains why I keep feeling light-headed + headache this whole time... Anyways, yeah. So the doctor said I couldn't fast n when we got home, my mom straight away toasted some bread n made milo for me (even though it was afternoon. but there was nothing for me to eat except the stuffs you would eat for breakfast..) She already suspected that I got low blood like a loooonnngg time ago - I just didn't want to accept that fact XD. NOW I can say I have low blood... *sigh* why is this happening to me..?

Well, illnesses aside.. We went to Tony Roma's for my birthday dinner~ And yes, my mom forced me to eat a lot on that night (which I did but...it turned out it's actually not good for low-blood people), so I was freaking full.. Thank God we went walking after that. Ezhan and Kakak gave me a trench coat as a present (which I always wanted since..I played a fashion game lol)...actually, more like Kakak recommended Ezhan to buy that one. But he didn't know what a trench coat was - thank God his fiancee was with him XD. He told me to wear it just in case it fits or not. When we got to the store - luckily my parents were experienced with winter clothing.. turns out the size he bought was a size smaller. So we exchanged with a bigger size n walla!

Hee~ thank u guys! :D

So ya, I guess that's about it... omo, last Saturday there was a breaking fast with the whole family at my house. It's not as hyped or loud as it used to be, but it was still fun - especially when we get to see the babies' stunts and all. Aww...cute little munchkins!! X3 But, to my horror...Mama called everyone to sing me n Eli happy birthday. Thank God most of the men and some women went for Terawih at that time... So yeah, move along! XD Oh, and I finally got on my piano for God knows why... Still, it was a great feeling again. Some of my cousins were impressed I could play some of the Playhouse Disney's songs, ie Dibo dibo ding, Little Einsteins n so on~ (yes. I watch Playhouse Disney with my niece n nephew. Got problem with that?!) But...meh. They're just simple melodies. If you're asking me to play a Chopin piece or Alicia Keys song, then I'll definitely flunk out XD.

For toda-ay~ I just got back from Kedah, just to see Mak Tok one last time before departing.. Hm...I wonder why my mind's still not registered that I'm gonna go to UK. lol For God's sake, woman! You're going to UK in another 2 weeks!!!

Over and out...

GP Basic - Game

Introducing new Korean girl group~ XD This youngest girl group just debuted on 13th August with their MV (music video), Game.




Below in their MV teaser contains the members' names:



Notice how young these girls look? Well get this - all the members are 14 years old except for the youngest, Janey (in case you don't know which one IS the youngest) who's only 12 years old... Dang, that's a strange age distribution O_O. Anyways, I'm sure many of you are shocked by how young they are, since the song sounds *ehem* too mature for their age. For me though - well, I'd rather judge their live performance than their age. Here's their debut performance today at SBS Inkigayo:



Yup. They're good as I expected d(^_^)b. Personally I feel that the theme of the song (from the sound to the dance moves) is inappropriate for them. Still, they're very talented, and you have to admit that Janey looks really cute when she raps XD. Plus, these girls are quite pretty, especially when they didn't wear much make-up for their performance.

Many netizens said these girls should "go back to school", well I say this - keep rockin' it girls! You're already at par with your seniors (if not more talented), just need a little more training and you'll be there ;)

PS: Seriously, these people should give them a break. It's just a debut, and we're not sure yet if they're gonna do another promotion. They might take a break for a while. Who knows? :S

Oh to the Em to the Gee...

http://elijojo8989.blogspot.com/2010/08/dont-talk-with-strangerseven-through.html

Again, I'm referring to a blog post from my sister, who published just a few minutes ago.. If haven't read her post, then DO IT! Otherwise you probably won't understand what I'm talking about here.

Okay, seriously, these girls (especially the young ones) are so easily manipulated and very.. VERY dense. How can they trust these guys when they have only met online?? Sure they're very smooth with sweet words, but it's just that - they're just WORDS. And these guys buy them drinks and stuffs that these girls want?? Then let me ask them this - why don't you ask your boyfriends to buy you a BUNGALOW HOUSE??? Or even better - a FERRARI sports car?!

Some people defend these girls, saying, "Oh, they're still young. They don't know which is right and which is wrong. They're going through the phase of puberty." Then they start blaming the parents for not giving good education.. For me though, let's be straightforward...

THESE GIRLS ARE IDIOTS!!! They can't think for themselves???? What are they - PRE-SCHOOL STUDENTS??!! For God's sake people, they're old enough to think! They have BRAINS!! It's because they have gone through puberty they can use their brains PROPERLY!! If you're saying that these girls are too young to understand, then what about the other girls at their age, who are not following the same footsteps?? Are you saying that these girls have NO BRAINS too?!

What the hell - I've been going through that phase too. It didn't took me long to realize that I shouldn't talk to strangers. It didn't took me long to realize that just because I befriended many chatters online, that doesn't mean I want to meet them in person. It didn't took me long to realize that I shouldn't give my phone number to a stranger I don't even know or recognize. And what age did I realize all of those? At the age of 13-15...and these girls are like, what - 16 year olds?! Even a 19-year-old can't even THINK for herself?!

Excuse me, but maybe the main reason for this is probably because she has a dysfunctional family etc. etc. Like HELLO! There's no such thing as perfect family! "Oh, she has family problems. That explains why. It's the parents that should be blamed." PLEASE LA! It's because she has a dysfunctional family that she should be able to THINK, that she should be able to MATURE.

Just so you know, most of these idiot, good-for-nothing girls are Malays. MALAYS for God's sake! You think I'm proud of that?! Have you ever heard any other races like the Chinese or Indian doing the same thing?? NO! It's the Malays that do these! And they are Muslims... MUSLIM!! For God's sake, girls... If you have no one else to go to, go to GOD! And what I really mean here is, PRAY! Pray to God to lead you to a righteous path. Pray to God to shield you from harm. Pray to God to give you a strong heart... Is it so freakin' hard to pray and ask God for a way?? And that is our job as a human being - pray and ask God for help!

And another thing...some people also blame that these girls have been on the computer for way too long or too frequently. Well guess what - ME TOO! I'm also on the computer 24/7, but am I meeting someone I shouldn't meet? NO! Definitely not! What's the use of getting an education in school, let alone an Islamic education[in which the ustaz(ah) would always say, "Don't do this, don't do that. Don't follow ur desires. Don't go against ur parents."], if we're not gonna use it well in our daily lives?? Heck, even my mom was worried that my sis and I would turn out like them - but are we? NO! Why? Because we can THINK for ourselves!

It's the Ramadhan night, and I know I shouldn't be b****ing about here. But I really can't stand it. Maybe we're near to the end of the world. Or maybe these girls really have no brains. Right. I'm gonna stop now. Over and out..

Of baby-sitting, induction, and visa

Saturday

At the house we were left with Ashaz. Even though I didn't have to help my mom cooking/making Malay desserts n such, I was still left damn tired just by carrying this little rascal ==_==||. His mouth is still not talking, but his hands and his feet just won't stop moving... Even while we carry him he'll try to climb up more! Haiya... But a baby is a baby, and is cute. So I is love him XD.

That evening we finally went to my sister's new house in Shah Alam, where we helped her with the preparations for the doa selamat at that night (a house-warming as well). After the whole thing finished, our maid, Kak Tum and I went to Aunt Mas' house to stay overnight there. Kak Tum wanted to go out with their maid, Kak Su on Sunday, whereas I wanted to attend the induction on that day as well. You know, just to spend time with my friends...probably for the last time.

Sunday

I woke up at 7.30, realizing that my friends involved with the induction were already at INTEC. So I arrived late and missed the opening speech. I had a bit of a wardrobe malfunction because none of my friends brought the yellow jersey for me (which is supposed to be worn by the sophomores)...well, it was my fault that I didn't tell them earlier. So I wore a black t-shirt...turned out that the juniors also wore the same thing. So I looked like a junior myself lol. I thought I'd be really embarassed with all the others asking, "Why aren't you wearing the jersey?" But I guess I didn't care at that time, because all I thought about was trying to have a good time with my friends.

Although I was really looking forward to spend time with them, it turns out that most of my housemates are busy with their own jobs ie some became facilitators, some were taking care of the checkpoints, and a few others didn't come. Thank God Nazirah, Amoy, Yani and Hathira were with me...otherwise I'd be bored to hell! Actually, I spent a lot of time with Nazirah for God knows why. Maybe because we were in separate classes this sem and couldn't talk much, so it's like our revenge for that time.

So yeah. Again, I disappeared in the middle of their post-mortem, because Aunt Mas and the family were already waiting for me in their car. So I just told one of my roommates to send my regards to the others. Though, I wish I could've at least took a photo with them...

After that, I followed Aunt Mas and the others to Shah Alam Mall. Alif (aka ADAM) and Nanith wanted to change their mp3s...or whatever they wanna do over there. We went to Giant to get something for Alif before he went back to Segamat and ate at Pizza Hut. I have to admit...I'm a really slow eater, especially among my family >_<||. But if I eat too fast, my chest would hurt and I'd feel like I'm suffocating. *sigh* I guess I am a black sheep in my family.. (dah la anak accident. anak paling pelik plak tu --_--||). When we got back, Aunt Mas was thinking of letting me and Kak Tum stay there for another night. But it turned out I really can't -- Papa already made an appointment with Fiona to collect our documents and go make our visas straight away.
Monday

Woke up quite early, if I do say so myself XD. We reached the InterStudy's office first to check, sign and collect our necessary documents. Honestly, I'm really grateful we applied through this agency, because when we reached the UK visa application counters, many of the hopeful students weren't really prepared with the necessary documents and such. So my sis and I were relaxed compared to the others....yet so bored. Because we had to wait for like less than 10 people until it was our turn. And for every person's turn, it felt like it lasted for eternity! (Like I said, most of them weren't prepared) but by the time it was our turn, it was only a few minutes and all that was left was taking a picture.

Picture...dang. I'd understand if they ask me to put my thumbs on the scanner, or maybe one hand but...four fingers (right hand first, then the second), then both of the thumbs?? and before the officer told me to do that, she told me to look up at the cctv-like camera for 5 seconds... This is waayyy freaky... But my mom said those who are doing the US visa must have a more hard time than us because, well, you know why. With all the prejudice and racism, plus with their intolerance to muslims. Dang. After that...weird...visa application, we went to Sogo, had lunch, and bought some clothes.

Tuesday

Today, we went to my sister's house again. Apparently she had to go to the office in the afternoon and she asked us to look after her kids. We did but, I think we just slept most of the times with them XD. We were freaking tired with all the travelling on the road from morning 'till evening. So yeah, that's just about it from us.


PS: Oh, I forgot to mention... I am officially in love with...






















































































SE7EN!!! XD



Below is a live performance from him, featuring T.O.P from Big Bang:



That's all from me for today. Salam Ramadhan and happy fasting~

Surprised, Shocked, Unexpected, etc (Puan K, 2010)

I guess many of friends already know this but - I've been accepted to Brunel University in UK! It's west of London and near to a town called Uxbridge (no, not the one in US). Plus, it's just less than 15 minutes away from Heathrow-London airport :). (Okay, I'm not that good in geography, so if you're confused on where the heck these places are, look in the map aka GOOGLE it). Strangely though, I don't feel the anticipation like I did with Belfast. Why? Because I'm tired of putting my hopes up too high - in other words, Belfast has taken it all away... :'(. Actually I did got an acceptance letter from the Queen's University, but due to the riot that happened in Northern Ireland (which is where Belfast is), it really blew up my chances to go there... No wonder why my brother and his wife gave me hints that they're against me going there... Of course, that's not the only reason why, but that is the main one... So yeah, I just let my parents choose a university for me.

I just realized that Actuarial Science is not for me... I just don't get insurance stuffs --_--||. Thus, the agency that I applied through suggested to my dad to apply for Brunel and recommended Mathematics and Statistics with Management Bsc as my course. I guess Management makes more sense to me...although Ili did point out, "You'll have to read a lot for Management, even more than Insurance." *sigh* I seriously hate reading and memorizing subjects...But, oh well. I've learned bits of the business world back in school, so I'll try taking up the challenge.

feeling low....

i've been down lately...why? don't know...it feels like something is missing...

Last saturday there was a bbq at Ain's house. usually if she does a function, there would be tents and she would invite almost anyone she knows including our former teachers. But this time, I was quite shocked to see how many guests there were. The majority were actually her friends who's studying in Egypt with her. Some took dentistry and others took medicine. Still, I'm a bit shocked as I REALLY don't know them. Thank God Madiha, Adawiyah n Inarah were there. I didn't eat much at first because i had dinner, but...now that i think about it, i think i did eat quite a lot lol. Just slow2 la..

Still, it was really great. I can finally see my school friends after not seeing them for almost a year. It's cute seeing Ain with braces XD. And Nazurah seriously has lost weight! Adawiyah, Inarah and Madiha didn't change (except that Madiha has gone crazier lol). *sigh* I miss the old times. The gossiping, the jokes, the laughing, the crazy stuffs we did back then, and the support we get from each other...i mean, we have been friends since Form 1 or 2. So it's only natural that we're still close... WAHHH!!!! Now i miss school! :'( (of course, I don't miss the homeworks :P)

This Saturday there's supposed to be a reunion (which is actually an alumni meeting) at school, so TK n Fatin will be going. Unfortunately, I won't, because I have to attend a module on that day. So much for timing...and TK is definitely disappointed that I won't come because..well, we tried meeting up together by going to Sunway, but every one of us were always busy. I guess it just wasn't meant to be...

So yeah, like i mentioned earlier, I'm feeling down lately... Part of it might be because I miss them...I just love how simple, laid-back n chilled we were back then. Now everyone is in different paths...The only time that we might even be together again would be after we graduated with a degree.. It's such a looonggg wayy....

Despite that, recently I read a book called 'Mr Good Enough' by Lori Gottlieb. It's about searching for a man who's not a perfect 10, or even a Prince Charming - because there's no such thing as perfect in this world. An 8 would be more than enough. So, in other words, this book is all about how to find a right guy without being too judgemental because - hey, no one's perfect. If you want a guy who looks a Brad Pitt, then don't expect him to have a decent personality. He's probably arrogant and/or selfish, because he might be in love with himself more. I find it very useful but, again, it got me down. Why? Get this....

I

don't

have

a

freaking

BOYFRIEND

yet...

...plus, I've never gone on a date. I would love to try the Western style of dating. You know, get to know each other first, go on a few dates (probably for months), and you won't even need to declare he's your boyfriend, because it will happen naturally. Plus, it's practically normal for a girl to ask a guy out first. In my generation in this country, however, they see things in other way. Okay, not all, but I can still see the stereotype here.. Okay, probably they would start off by getting to know each other first. But after a few weeks or probably just a few days, the guy would declare, or ask her to "couple". In other words, to be his girlfriend.

Just so you know, this kind of trend that I have to live in is really sad. Really, REALLY sad... Because not only the teens these days just ask out whether they want to 'couple' or not, without even going on a single date and not even knowing them well, it's also quite - how do you say this - ASHAMED for girls to ask the guys out, instead of the other way around. Why?? I don't know... It's just too cliched. I mean I thought of a few times whether I want to confess to my crush that I like him, but if this trend is really true then...bummer. Think about how he will think if I confessed my feelings and asked him out. He'd probably feel inferior as his manlihood is being 'challenged' by another gender. Like, honestly, I even heard of my friends said, "It's the guys who should ask/make the first move first."

*sigh* I guess that explains why I'm still single. I want to at least try to make the first move, but this kind of obstacle is really blocking the way. Okay, sure, I don't to ruin my friendship with him and make it seems awkward after i confess, but STILL! I don't wanna be like those single women who either married late or never get married at all even at their 40s. Heck, even my mom kept asking me, "Don't you have a boyfriend at college?" Again, bummer.....

So yeah, that's just my post. Sorry if it seems too messy and disoriented... I mean, I only write just for the sake of vending out my feelings. The modern life is so hard...seriously....

Another blog i'm STALKING! XD

Well, not really. It's just my sister's blog. And she seemed to post the same thing that I wanna post and she already wrote what I'm gonna write. Hehe, so I hope you enjoy this post:

http://elijojo8989.blogspot.com/2010/07/i-need-girlbad-girl-or-good-girl.html

It's about a new girl band called "Miss A" under JYP's sub-label AQ Entertainment. Before they debut in Korea they were called the Chinese Wonder Girls. But after the members changed (1 of them was Lim who recently joined the Wonder Girls; and 2 left the group), the group doesn't look like their former title after all. Their song is really different than any other girl groups out there. It's not techno and it's not too upbeat. Plus we can hear their vocals very well without the autotune. I highly recommend this group to those who don't like typical girl groups :D

Next is Tae Yang from Big Bang! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! His new song is just CUTE!! Watch the MV with the eng subs and u'll know wat i mean XD <3

The Tings Tings - We Walk

If you don't know them, they're the ones who sang 'That's Not My Name'. Still don't know? Well...go search them on YouTube ;P. Anyways, this song is unique, as expected from an European group. A getaway for me from all the mainstream songs XD.

Big Bang - Tell Me Goodbye [Translation]

Letting you go...(please somebody)
Letting you go...(please somebody)

No, I got this, yeah
Still I´m thinking about this thing called love
You got me shaken up (please tell me there´s a way)
And it got my head spinnin´ round round round (please tell me there´s a way)
Don´t wanne take a fall, it´s best to rake it all
It´s gonna be better for you, move on, move on (please tell me there´s a way)
Uh uh, we break it, break it or thought we make it, make it
And now we cover it all

Girl, I swear I won´ t even for a second
Cause you any pain
in order to protect you
Because there's no other way

Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say

Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
If forgetting me will give you freedom baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye

Girl, you know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
I wake　up crying these words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else

Baby the moment our lips part this time
I´ll never find better, better than you

Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being by my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye

Yo and it´s so, so
Said it just ain´t happening
Wish you could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can´t let go
To be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn´t live with myself seeing you like
The thing you deserve
Baby you are superb
Always believe that it hurts
That bleeds, that´s word
I think that I can do
My body is just takes a bigger part of me to be letting you go
I wish that weren´t so

Your voice, pained and fading away, away-ay-ay-ay
Erased completly by the wind, stay, stay-ay-ay-ay
All these things, I can´t take it, those tears, don´t cry for me
Or our sake I´ll never look back again. Eh-eh-eh-ain

Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Those hands that embraced me
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Seem to be letting go
Merely being be my side is not kindness baby
Oh tell me goodbye, oh tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

PS: Finally, their first R&B song after a long time... I love this song~ It's different than any other break-up songs. Instead of asking the girl to come back to him, he told her to go further away from him, because he doesn't want to see her being hurt even more.. TT.TT Now that's what I call real love...

Credits: http://makikawaii-jklyrics.blogspot.com/2010/06/big-bang-tell-me-goodbye-lyrics.html

Gummy - As a Man [translation]

A new start is always frightening
But at least this time I truly believe it’s love
Trying to be more happy than my painful separation
You and we should promise eternity and swear on it

But frequent interest may give minor pressures
Might get annoyed of the long calls I don’t want to end
You might call the expanding love, obsession
As time goes by I’m getting smaller

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

You’re next to me but why does my heart feel empty
Why is it that your words “I love you” don’t sound the same as before
the long waits are getting harder and harder
I think of giving up hundreds of times

I feel uneasy and can’t sleep until you fall asleep
I go crazy when I can’t contact you throughout the night
I’m not a woman who expects many things
But I collapse from one of your inattentive words

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

I still feel like when we first met
I flutter in front of your smile
But even these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us
But since you’re a man, since you’re my man I still love you

Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you wouldn’t know even if you died
Since I’m lacking, Since I’m foolish, I’m only looking at you
Since you’re a man, since you’re a man, you don’t understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won’t be able to change, because you’re a man

PS: This is a reaaallllyyyyy nice song. Do listen to it! :D

PSS: I love Gummy! X3

Credits: http://moonlightunes.wordpress.com/2010/04/30/hangeul-romanized-lyrics-to-gummys-as-a-man/

Yours and I (Park Bom vs. Jason Mraz)

This is so cute!! I love the songs: Jason Mraz's I'm Yours and Park Bom's You and I, but it never occurred to me that both would go together very well! It's mixed by the previous DJ I mentioned (see the previous post). Enjoy~

Miyavizm~

...oh...em...GEE!!!

It's been so LONG since I'm updated with the J-music world, especially J-Rock. Vamps released 2 singles this year (which are both VERY contrast to each other..), Gackt is involved in another movie project, and Miyavi...MIYAVI!! IS!! MARRIED!!! LAST YEAR!!!!! and guess what? He has a daughter! A FREAKING BABY GIRL!! Only 4 months after his marriage..well, that's expected, but STILL!!!

*ehem* Just so you know, the reason I'm writing in capital letters (aka shouting) is because I'm really surprised, not because of jealousy, hatred bla bla bla. No, not at all. It's because I never expected him to marry so...early? I don't know..it's rare for rockers to marry in their 20s (well, for me la), especially Japanese men when they're all about concentrating on their careers at that particular age..

Anyways, all in all I'm really happy for him. Heck, his wife, Melody, is really pretty! She was a well-known J-pop artist, but retired in 2008 as she wants to focus on becoming a fashion designer. I think she's about the same age as Miyavi, which is yet another surprise, since a married couple usually has a few years of age gap (if not more..). From what I heard from their mutual fans, both seems to have many similarities despite their looks and image. And they seemed to be really happy, especially after they got their first child, Lovelie Miyavi Ishihara. Strange name..I know..but there's a reason behind the name Lovelie, which meant 'The reason of love', or something like that.

I want to post some pics of the happy family but the connection or blogger is messing up --.--+. Really pissed off..

Anyways, Miyavi has released two new songs as well (one in 2009 and another 2010). Here are the two vids respectively. Enjoy~






lol I bet u didn't think I'd listen to these kind of songs. You should have seen or heard my mp3 playlist back when I was 13 or 14! XD Ah, memories~ I think I was much happier back then with my imaginations running wild. Even Kelly Clarkson's "Behind These Hazel Eyes" kept me motivated to write my lotr fanfic. Hehe. Over and out~

PS: Oh, and just to make ur head hurt or spin even more, here's a world tour version of 'Survive' PV. 8D

Mashup and new fav groups!

This is one hot mashup I've ever heard :D. If u wanna know more about the DJ, go here:
http://www.masamixes.com/

And this one is my current fav.



Code-V, originally known as Bless back in 2007, made a comeback recently. Back then they failed to gain much attention (heck, I don't even know if they have a single MV back then). Yes, I admit they're not as good-looking as other boy bands. But their vocals really stands out. I've seen many groups debuted recently, but this group managed to stand out (for me at least).

Members:
0:20 - Sang Woo, vocalist
0:36 - Nallo, main vocalist I think.. (both of 'em have worked with SG Wannabe member Lee Seok Hoon and Blue Wind Soul)
0:50 - Taemin, leader (no, not Taemin from SHINee!! lol He used to work as a vocal trainer)
1:04 - Jaewon, rapper (the maknae)
1:06 - Sol, vocalist (was a singer/songwriter for an indie rock band)

I don't have a fav member in this group (hey, it's a compliment. I like every one of 'em!), but I like Nallo's smooth vocals~

Note: If you have listened to Insomnia by Craig David or Wheesung (whichever version you like), you might hear similarities with this song. I think it's just a coincidence that they have the same style...ah well. At least their vocals are great :D.

Next, is one of the latest girl groups that debuted:




...Well, no need to write their names here lol. There's nothing outstanding about this group actually..though I'm amazed with Hyo Lyn's talent. Even onstage she seems to stand out from the rest since she contributed most of the vocals.

So yeah, that's it from me for today. Over and out~ XD

HIKMAH BERTUDUNG...BAGI YANG TIDAK MENGERTI - Blog - MuslimSocial.com

Juz nak share ngan korg... :)

HIKMAH BERTUDUNG...BAGI YANG TIDAK MENGERTI - Blog - MuslimSocial.com

Templates~ Templates~

2 nights ago I suddenly went crazy and downloaded a few templates, but a lot of them doesn't suit me.. meh, i'm sticking to this one for now :P

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..Um, yeah. I got nothing to do X3. This vid is from the Dream Concert 2010, so cheers~

PS: When the heck am I gonna start on that statement.. *sigh* And my lecturer's not replying my message *SIGH* ==.==||

If....

My friends kept talking about the 'Fast Trek' method, ie studying in diploma for 1 and a half years, and another 2 years in degree..and there are some that wants to finish diploma first, then go degree - but study overseas... I was in the latter group, and I kept saying "It's either you want to finish your studies faster, or you study overseas."

There was a UK Education Fair held in Grand Dorsett's Hotel in Subang Jaya today, but it was only like pre-registration. We went there to find more info about UK universities for my sister, who just finished her diploma. Mama told me to just prepare my own documents as well, since she's so psyched up about having a scholarship for me in the future... But a greater light shone down on me in that fair.

So...if ever I choose this road, then I won't be a UiTM student anymore.. And I won't be studying Malaysia anymore, starting from around September. Hm...

PS: Don't jump to conclusions yet!! It's not been confirmed if I have approval or not. Once I got one or not, I'll tell you guys the full details ;)

oh my masik~ masik masik~

lalala~~ u know, ur not the only one who's reading my blog darling. there are other people here as well. Heck, I'm not even asking you to listen to those songs. Who told you to concentrate on that? Hmmm????

So, back to my original business here.. You guys probably never heard of a girl group named Secret (or maybe you do but they don't really stick in your mind). Though I'm really impressed with their 2nd song, Magic. It's really catchy~



At first I thought they mispronounced 'Magic', probably bcoz of Korean slang.. Turns out that they purposedly make it sound like that lol. Magic + Music = Masic, get it?

Anyways, I've been watching almost all of their Magic performances that I can stumble upon, probably for the past few months :P. I just love watching the leader~ (the blonde one), she seems very energetic. She's probably the main dancer in the group as well.

So yup, I guess this'll be my..oh, it's midnight already XD. Ok, then let it my 1st post for today. Over and out~

everything happens for a reason...

If you haven't noticed, i've been posting the same quote up there in YM and FB. XD

But it makes sense.. Everything does happen for a reason. And somewhat the song "Without U" by 2PM has really something to do with my life right now..... No, I'm not talking about what happened last year, I'm talking about NOW!

I ain't gonna write it here though. ANYWAYS! Let's move on to something more serious... why am I not studying INVESTMENT?!?! @_@ The freaking paper is on Wednesday and yet I'm not studying anything!! If I stay at college I'd be taking too many naps..so I thought going home is better. Turns out I just sit at my bed the WHOLE DAY, surfing the net on my laptop.... *sigh* I guess we really can't escape the cyberworld huh? --__--||

Hm..since this blog is supposed to be about music, I'm gonna give a few suggestions for you guys to hear (hell, I don't even know if my readers are gonna care or about this or not, but WHO CARES?!)

* 2AM - 1st Mini Album (Repackaged)
>> I Did Wrong
>> Can't Let You Go Even if I Die

* 2PM - Don't Stop Can't Stop (Mini Album)
>> Without U (original & remix ver.)
>> Maja [As soon as can be(?)] (original & space ver.)

* Alicia Keys - Element of Freedom (Album)
>> Love is Blind
>> Doesn't Mean Anything
>> Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart
>> Wait Til You See My Smile
>> Un-Thinkable (I'm Ready)
>> Put It in a Love Song [feat. Beyonce]

...Hm, this seems pretty cool. Meheh~ 8D
Over and out!

Letters (2nd time i'm doing this :P)

I. Put your iTunes/Ruckus/Napster/etc on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Tag 11 friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
La-La-La

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Shiawase ni Narou (Let's Be Happy)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Telephone... o_o??

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
2 Dome no Kanojo

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Perfect Girl (haha, don't we all girls want dat?)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Moonchild (riighht...)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Kiro

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Melody~

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ophelia (wha??)

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Fare Well (lol)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Yume no Tsubasa (night wings???)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sakura Drops

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Over-Rated (HAHAHA!!)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
The Christmas (x kene mengena lgsg --__--||)

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
L.O.V.E (lol nice one~)

16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
TTL 2 (Time to Love 2)

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
I Got a Little Something for You

18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Let the Flames Begin (that is so wrong... ==__==||)

19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I remember you

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
DRACULEA ~CICO's Castle~

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Boo~ (bukan yg ngutuk2 eh, boo as in "You are my Boo~")

22. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
G.O.O.D Luv (..dats the worst thing?? O_o)

23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Stupid (nice...)

24.DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Chocolate Love

25. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Intro (Big Bang's japanese self-titled album)

26. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
CASINO

27. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Letters

updates, updates~

mehehe~ I know, it's been so long since I post the last entry. So here I am~~ :D

Let's start with the latest event.. Yesterday my classmates and I went ice-skating in Sunway Pyramid. As usual it was fun (and damn freaking tired!). But something was missing...maybe because the majority of our class couldn't make it. Surprisingly though, many of the Class A guys (as in those who were not my classmates last sem) turned up. And most of them are already pros in ice-skating themselves.

But I'm ashamed of myself...it was my third trip to the ice rim, and yet I was still shaky as I move. Even Ja'ar said it's like it was my first time playing @_@. Meh, whatever... Mozak was really kind though and likes to say encouraging words, ie I've become better bla bla bla, even though I know it was only partly true.. ==__==|| Jen as usual likes to layan Azi and Tira. That gatal guy, haha. Mui, as usual, was really quiet with us. But he and Ja'ar seemed to enjoy themselves, even though it was their first time. It was also the first for Azraii and Syimir. The first learned fast in the ice-skating rim, but I really feel bad for Syimir - he always fell and even got himself bruises and scratches (ouch...). Syahirah (the only Class A girl to join) was really enjoying the ice-skating. She learned a lot faster than all of us combined on our first time!! Probably because she's petite. FYI, small people and athletics are able to learn how to skate faster compared to tall people and the lazy bums (like me). Others that joined were Husin, his girlfriend Izzati, Ulfah, Faezah and Amoy (the last two joined at the last minute). Farhan didn't play and only watched from our resting place, Su and Nazi (both Class A girls) went around and shopping, and Yani and Hathira did the same, only that they didn't shop.

It was great hanging out with the Class A peeps, but somehow it couldn't compare with last sem, when the whole Class D mates turned up to skate. We played for quite a long time and even had our little picnic in between (sian Adam, kene sapu roti utk semua org lol). Su, Afiq and Quchai were with us. Now they're in their own paths...We met Quchai recently and he seemed to be doing okay and Adam got a call from Afiq for the first time. We don't know what happen to Su though.. All in all, we still pray for their successes in life and hope they are and always will do well :).

Now I am at home, forgot to go shower while I write this and just received news from my dear Hong Kong tycoon bro that my toilet is broken... I don't even know which part is broken but I definitely don't wanna check right now.. Anyways, just so you guys know, my sister-in-law is pregnant and it's confirmed it's a boy! *squeaks* They're gonna have a baby shower tomorrow at our Bangi house. What's a baby shower? Basically it's an event where friends come and give gifts to the expected parents, like a stroller, clothes, anything that's in the must-list baby stuffs. There will also be a few games (but I definitely don't wanna be involved..I think I'm gonna be too groggy tomorrow, and I'll be the only teenager in this house). What I'm really waiting for are the cupcakes!! Yum yum~ It's kinda like favours to those who attend the baby shower. We did that for Zahira's akikah as well. But these cupcakes are a lot nicer~ It's from Wondermilk if I'm not wrong. Oh, and just so you know, my sis-in-law is due on June or July~ Hee, I'm so excited to have another nephew! But she'll deliver the baby in Hong Kong, so I doubt I get to see him in his first year :(.

Ooh, ooh! Talking about nephew~ Ashaz Zaman is CHO CUTE!!! X3 I tried to talk to him and he kept smiling (like a ladies' man. haha)! And he's getting chubbier and chubbier... which makes him more CUTE!! But he's a one funny babeh.. he farts and burps a lot (which is good actually), and likes to poop a lot.. hehe, typical Idris baby. His sister is, as usual, VERY talkative. Here are few lists of her funny words~ (btw, we now officially call Zahira, YAYA)

Scene 1:
Mama: "Yaya, kenapa hidung yaya kembang sangat?"
Yaya: "Kene air!"

Scene 2:
Yaya: "Nak kung!" Note: kung = dukung
Wan Chou: "Yaya jalan la."
Yaya: "Kaki Yaya rosak!"

Scene 3
Papa: "Eh, kenapa xleh nampak ni?"
Yaya: "Mata rosak lah tok."

LOL
with that, I end my latest post~

PS: My bro bought a lot of chocolates for us due to Easter Day. Hehehehehehee~~~can't wait to eat 'em ;)

Leona Lewis - I See You

Walking through a dream

I see you

My light in darkness breathing of new life

Now I live through you and you through me

Enchanted

I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise

So I offer my life as a sacrifice

I live through your love

You teach me how to see

All that's beautiful

My senses touch your world I never picture

Now I give my hope to you

I surrender

I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes

Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise

So I offer my life

I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open

(and my spirit never free)

To the world that you have shown me

But my eyes could not division

All the colours of love and in life ever more

Evermore

(I see me through your eyes)

I see me through your eyes

(Living through life flying high)

Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise

So I offer my life as a sacrifice

I live through your love

I live through your life

I see you...

I see you...

[credits: metrolyrics.com]

I guess I don't need to mention the movie of this song lol. The lyrics are so captivating that I just have to put it here. (well, it IS my blog, so I can do whatever I want with it 8D). Sequel~ Sequel~ Sequel~~~~ X3

*sigh* I wanna try playing this song...

AVATAR!! (and other stuffs) 8D

AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!! It's been such a LONG TIME since I FEEL LIKE THIS!! BEST GILER MOVIE AVATAR TU SIOT! Ok, maybe I'm a bit overreactive, but STILL!! The last time I feel like this was when Lord of the Rings was all the rage (still a loyal fan, tq X3). At first I didn't know the director was the same guy who directed Titanic. Great storyline, great effects, great...everything!! Although there are a few questions about the movie n all, but all in all, it satisfies this fantasy-fanatic mind *HUGE GRIN* (I'm sensing some 'idea-bunnies' in my head for my story. mehehehe~~)

PS: I still can't face him in person... I don't know, there's practically no reason anymore not to even greet him, but I just can't look him in the eye anymore. Oh well, like Abang said, "No matter how nice you are to everyone, they're still gonna talk behind your back." So, MY advice to myself, "Love Allah, family, TRUE frenz, and last but not least...YOURSELF!!" 8D So love yourselves, PEOPLE!! Coz ya ain't goin nowhere if ya don't love yourself.

Over and out...

Someone just searched my name on Google... creepy o_o

PS: I haven't touch my statistics homework, and there'll be a calculus quiz tomorrow...nice ^_^

New housemates, new classmates, new life..

..but that doesn't mean I stopped hanging out with my old housemates ;). So I like said in one of my previous posts, I was sheet-y scared of how my college life's going to be with all the change of roommates, change of class and all that. Turns out though, it ain't so bad as I thought (yes, i know. I should've think positive instead at that time ==__==).

Ehem, anyways...my housemates turn out to be crazy as well (it's a compliment dearies, plz don't take it too hard), but their craziness is different than my old housemates were, how should I say it...more girly? lol coz my old housemates were more brutal and tomboy-ish. Nonetheless, they still make me laugh - DAMN hard! LOL I especially enjoy being in the same house with my classmates - Azi, Ulfah, Hathira, Faezah and Juliana. Crazy things happened to us in the past 2 weeks (flooded bathroom, unattached toilet seat, etc etc), but it was also filled with laughter, especially when we talk about ourselves and the pasts. Hehe, I'm glad I'm in the same house as you guys. 8D

Like I said though, I never forget my old housemates. Although there was a bit conflict and misunderstanding between us, it was already solved yesterday. At first I thought Sha had change into a different person, and I was Goddamn scared for her - but it looks like she's still the same old sweet Sha I recognize. So glad to have you back gurl!! TT^TT Syakira and Syaza r still the same, though I could sense that their house was quieter than last sem...probably cuz every room has one emptied bed, literally. One moved to UiTM Puncak Alam, another plans to enter politeknik, and the last one is moi, but I sometimes fill up that bed from time to time, usually to accompany Syakira when the other two are out. And I guess the saying "The further apart you are, the closer your hearts are" (or something like that) really implies here. I think I've grown closer with my housemates compared to last sem..

Next, my classmates. At first, it was first class, totally, highly, uber AWKWARD!! SERIOUSLY!! We were in our own pack doing our own thing while waiting for the lecturer, and there was barely any communication at all among us!! But thankfully, the gap between us became smaller - slowly but surely - and we started talking to each other like pals. And..hm, I'm not even sure if I should call it 'admire' or 'crush', but someone did caught my attention. Ah well...only time will tell. I'm tired of keeping my hopes up, and I definitely don't want history to repeat itself.

Ahh, and another interesting topic... Last Thursday, most of the former CSD12D-ians went to rock climbing in Shah Alam, along with a few friends from other class. We already planned to go there since last week, so we were excited. However, I might wanna remind those who plan to rock climb - don't wear shoes aka go barefoot. I noticed my friends who did that have climbed up faster than those who wore shoes (and I'm among them, unfortunately --__--), and succeeded in reaching the top. Probably coz we'd have better gripping with our feet and we can even climb our way up even if our feet aren't on the rocks.

After that we had an early dinner in Burger King (which is just a few walks away from the rock climbing place) and celebrated my classmate, Nazmi's birthday. Each of us offered to buy him at least one item of food/beverage, but somehow one of us bought a set instead, so he had TWO sets of meals. To our shock, he succeeded on finishing them, but we chipped in a bit for his sake. lol

Lastly, this morning I went to my first co-curriculum class for this sem, and it was Public Speaking. No, not that Malay one.. The ENGLISH one!! Like FINALLY!! I've longed to enter that course ever since I entered college! I had to start over from scratch though - like, if I have continued the Malay one, I would've been a level higher, whereas for this one I have to start over in level one - but it was worth it. The lecturer is cool too. He graduated last year with a degree in law (I seriously salute him...) and he was in the Malaysian debate team, whom won third place in an international debate competition. (Again, I salute him..)

But, as usual, something happened that made the lecturer disappointed. There was supposed to be around twenty people in that class, but only six of us turned up (and only one guy turned up. you know who you are...). All of us were shocked by the attendance, and the lecturer couldn't continue his lesson because of that (even though it was supposed to be just introduction, but eh...I was hoping we could get on with the lesson).

So yeah..I guess that's about it. Only two weeks and a lot has happened already. Can't wait what the future might bring us ;). To those who took Matriculations, happy holidays! Enjoy it while it lasts!! XD

PS: Mama Papa xde...blk Kedah :(. Thank God my older siblings are here...over and out... Oh, did I mention my 3-weeks old nephew is 5 kg now? 8D

Yes, I was burned, but I call it a lesson learned...

"Forgivenesss and tolerance increase the honour and respect of their owners. Be forgiving so that Allah will cherish you"

Prophet Muhammad SAW

...I think I've learned my lesson from that particular saying, especially from the honourable Prophet SAW himself... True, Allah loves those who are forgiving...so I decided to just leave the past behind. I told my brother, Ezhan, my new year's resolution is to forget and ignore that person totally... But I think I'm gonna change that.

I'm gonna forget and forgive his mistakes...but that doesn't mean i forgive him 8D

PS: ni pun sbb i terbaca kat laptop ex-housemate punye wallpaper. kalau x jgn harap la i nak maafkan dia. wakakaka! oh, and the title is an excerpt frm Alicia Keys - Lesson Learned (feat John Mayer). Do listen to that song, it's rly nice and an eye-opening :D