I think I'm "Ugly"!

Salaams to my Muslim friends and a very big HOLA to others! :D

Hee~ I haven't updated this blog for a looooonnnng time. Well, it's not that I don't WANT to update this blog - I just DON'T KNOW what to write is all.. Since I'm always never have any ideas what to write, I'll just let the music describe how I'm feeling right now :3. Of course songs will not describe 100% of what I am feeling, but I'm just gonna leave it at that coz I'm really not into exposing my feelings to everyone right now. Enjoy the music y'all~



I think I've mentioned this before, but 2NE1 is my FAVOURITE!!! <3 This is definitely something new from them! Since I was once a rock fan (or to be precise, J-Rock fan), I really love this concept. At least it's something different from the typical clubbing/electro songs. Plus, the lyrics hold a lot of meaning. Sure we sometimes feel ugly or we're just not good enough. Even Teddy (ze producer) said he might've felt very down when he wrote this song. Why? You have to read the english subs to really understand what I'm saying, ya get me??

Anyways, like I said as of today I am not gonna reveal how I really feel like at the current moment, like before (unless I suddenly feel like it and wanting to get out from the shell for once. *gasp* 'get out from the shell'?? ain't that laruku's song??? XD). I'll just let the music do the talking. Peace out y'all! Assalamualaikum..

PS: Omo, almost forgot.. To my Muslim friends, happy fasting and celebrate Ramadhan! (and by 'celebrating' I mean connecting more with Allah and do more sunnahs) Let this Ramadhan be one of your best ones yet :D

TAG~~

..Ok, i'm such a loser. Dah lama gile i x update!! ==.==|| Honestly I don't know what to update anymore. Not that I don't have anything to write, I just don't know what to write. A lot of things are happening, externally and internally, but I feel like I'm restraining myself from expressing it in writing form.. But, I'm sure everyone is facing their own problems everyday, so I wouldn't want to worry them with I'm writing here right? :)

Anyways, it seems like I haven't updated myself with my friends' blogs either (I just finished reading 3 blogs. What a bad friend I am..). Apparently I've been tagged by my chocoholic friend, Tira aka Kak Long~ aww, thank you for tagging me dear. Otherwise I probably wouldn't write anything in this blog by now lol.

THREE NAMES I GO BY

1. Eza (nickname since childhood)

2. Ezanin

3. Kenit (lol this is what my siblings usually call me. Man I really miss the time when we would gather at the dinner table with the whole family and laughed away after any meal..)

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED

1. Johor (the place I was born)

2. Kedah

3. KL & Selangor (Bangi is the longest time I've stayed in one location, next to Johor..but I was a baby at that time so I didn't remember much about Johor memories..)

THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH

1. Any Kpop-related

2. K-Drama XD

3. E News! (at home la..kalau sini harapan)

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO

1. HOME!! :'(

2. anywhere with my family!

3. anywhere with my friends!

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS

1. Japanese...currently I'm craving for sushi n tempura @.@

2. Indian~ always forever will be! XD

3. Mama's cooking!!! Omo...now I miss her Nasi Dagang, Nasi Lemak, Nasi Ayam, ayam masak pedas, CURRY, [the list gonna goes on forever LOL]

THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO

1. going back to Malaysia!!

2. easter (coz Abang's coming!)~ n of course finishing the exams ==__==||

3. meeting my soulmate..whoever would that be

THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED

1. hamsters (dead)

2. small fishes (dead as well)

3. cats...though I don't know if there are still any at my house now (coz they're actually my maid's, not mine XD)

THREE FRIENDS WHO WILL REPLY

Honestly I can't think of anyone who WOULDN'T reply lol

THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS

1. Big Bang & 2NE1

2. Alicia Keys & Sarah McLachlan

2. Wonderland (new girl band co-managed by Kian Westlife :D)

THREE FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH

uhh..none. well maybe a bit of basketball, but that's a LONG time ago --__--||

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS

1. Fresh juices (solo or mixed)

2. Sky juice aka plain water

3. Actually, any drink will do as long as it's halal.

I TAGGED

1. Ezliani Johanna

2. Nur Afiqah bt. Amirullah

3. Sharifah al-Idrus

4. Ili Liyana

5. Aiman Toreq

6. Anyone who's reading my blog!! XD

The Artist

As an ISFP (Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving), your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.

ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.

ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.

ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.

ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.

ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.

ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.

ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.

The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.

The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.

...Well, some of them might be true, whereas others are not. I don't know how to describe myself, so you'll be the judge :)

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BOYBAND FEVER!! XD

WHOOO~~ The boy band fever is back in k-pop! ;D *ehem* Now let's start with one of my fav groups~

MBLAQ

This is just..wow O_O. Didn't really expect they're gonna promote a ballad/R&B song. Still this sounds really good. G.O's vocals + Lee Joon's ballet dance + Seung Ho's n Thunder's charm + Mir's rap = LOVE!!! XD The emotion they've shown here is also impressive. I think all of them can be actors one day (well, Lee Joon already is an actor XD).

Oh SALSA! (as TK would say XD) It's so great the boys just keep improving from one single to another..heck I've fallen in love with them even more! One thing about this vid though...it's hurting my eyes with so many bright lights *_*||.

Teen Top

You probably have or never heard of them, since they're still new to the industry. They may not be as good looking as MBLAQ, but their talents are sick! I like Niel the most since his vocals are really unique~ (and I don't know why but I think he dances better than the others) Not to diss the others though, they're talented too but yet to show them. I'll be watching these guys from now on! :D

That's it for now. There are more boy bands coming back soon (including Big Bang! KYAA~~) :D

Everything is messed up straight from the heart

FYI: The title above is a clean version of "Everything is F'ed up" (if u get it lol).

LYRICS:

I'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus:]
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

[chorus]

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
'cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

[chorus x2]

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself up 'cause things are messed up

Ok, enough with the moody background (which I've changed) and those crappy sad songs. "Gotta pick myself up, where do I start"...it's time for a change. I've removed that person from my friends list, so let's start a new chapter..

TAG (no. 2)

Tagged by ILLEYH! XD

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
- *blur* muka bru bgn tido ==.==

2. How much cash do you have on you?
- secret lor..

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
- floor

4. Favorite planet?
- Saturn coz it gots pretty rings around~

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
- Papa TT.TT

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
- any k-pop. now it's GD&TOP :D


7. What shirt are you wearing?
- i'm wearing my sleeping attire lol


8. Do you "label" yourself?
- not really. but I have to it'll be "quiet, naive and weird"



9. Have you ever pictured your crush naked?
- does topless count? LOL (ya Allah, eza! bertaubat skit!! >_<||)


10. Bright or Dark Room?
- Bright...otherwise I'd fall asleep easily

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
- she's a freak LOL. jk~ she's cute and such a darlin~ but can be quite stubborn.. BABE! I MISS U!! TT.TT

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- sleeping. my gastric was acting up again..


14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
- Mama, "OK".... ==_==||


15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
- there ain't no 24-hour shops here kiddo (unless u count the pakistani shop..)


16. What's a word that you say a lot?
- ngek


17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
- mama~~ <3>


18. Last furry thing you touched?
- Fatin Amira's hippo


19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
- if ur talkin abt medicine..probably 4


20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
- dude. it's the 21st century already..


21. Favorite age you have been so far?
- back when i was 13 (coz everything was new and my creativeness in writing was sky-rocketing) and 19 (new great friends and great housemates!) :D

22. Your worst enemy?
- the demons inside me..


23. What is your current desktop picture?
- an art by Nanami Yuki (deviantArt). A girl in an old japanese town street on a rainy day, with an umbrella in her hand and a dog/cat beside her.


24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
- "OK" to Fatin Amira


25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
- FLY!! so I can travel easily as well as go home when i feel like it (in other words, it saves my money ;D)

26. Do you like someone?
- ben barnes~ <3>


27.The last song you listened to?
- Bennie K - Okay

Muahaha...suddenly I feel gothic after hearing this song 8D. Speaking of which...

Went to Camden Town yesterday (still in Great London), and boy oh boy. Finally some fresh styles and clothings compared to the same old BORING ones in most shops here ==.==||. It's like Petaling Street (according to my friend..i've never been there myself lol), with lots of stalls like night markets along the streets and alleys. Most of the sellers are Asians, which is not surprising coz I think it's always the Asians who are quite creative when it comes to fashion sense~ XD Oh, n we saw a lot of cosplayers as well (cosplayers = people who dress up like their fav anime characters. If you don't even know what anime is then you're in the wrong blog, mate). Lots of gothic, punk and lolita clothes as well~ *I wonder how I'd look like in a gothic victorian dress XD*

Anyways, although there were lots of stuffs there, we didn't buy a single item except lunch. Honestly my wardrobe is too small to fit in any more clothes! Mama already bought one huge black bag of my clothes (ALONE) over the holidays and it's already filling up my wardrobe @_@. She even told me yesterday over the phone that I should change outfit everyday...aiyoo, it's not like anyone will notice what i'm wearing under the coat.. (FYI, I rarely remove my coat in lecture rooms coz i'm too lazy to do so :P)

That's all from me now. Oh, and by the way....

I MISS L'ARC~EN~CIEL!!!! TT.TT

A message to myself..a reminder..

Girls' Day - Nothing Lasts Forever (Eng/Rom/Hangul) + performance

..This says everything. Nothing lasts forever..

PS: This is WAAYYY better than their debut song! I love how vocally talented they are :D

...If I were the girl who sings the most at the end I probably would have faint ==.==||