feeling low....

i've been down lately...why? don't know...it feels like something is missing...

Last saturday there was a bbq at Ain's house. usually if she does a function, there would be tents and she would invite almost anyone she knows including our former teachers. But this time, I was quite shocked to see how many guests there were. The majority were actually her friends who's studying in Egypt with her. Some took dentistry and others took medicine. Still, I'm a bit shocked as I REALLY don't know them. Thank God Madiha, Adawiyah n Inarah were there. I didn't eat much at first because i had dinner, but...now that i think about it, i think i did eat quite a lot lol. Just slow2 la..

Still, it was really great. I can finally see my school friends after not seeing them for almost a year. It's cute seeing Ain with braces XD. And Nazurah seriously has lost weight! Adawiyah, Inarah and Madiha didn't change (except that Madiha has gone crazier lol). *sigh* I miss the old times. The gossiping, the jokes, the laughing, the crazy stuffs we did back then, and the support we get from each other...i mean, we have been friends since Form 1 or 2. So it's only natural that we're still close... WAHHH!!!! Now i miss school! :'( (of course, I don't miss the homeworks :P)

This Saturday there's supposed to be a reunion (which is actually an alumni meeting) at school, so TK n Fatin will be going. Unfortunately, I won't, because I have to attend a module on that day. So much for timing...and TK is definitely disappointed that I won't come because..well, we tried meeting up together by going to Sunway, but every one of us were always busy. I guess it just wasn't meant to be...

So yeah, like i mentioned earlier, I'm feeling down lately... Part of it might be because I miss them...I just love how simple, laid-back n chilled we were back then. Now everyone is in different paths...The only time that we might even be together again would be after we graduated with a degree.. It's such a looonggg wayy....

Despite that, recently I read a book called 'Mr Good Enough' by Lori Gottlieb. It's about searching for a man who's not a perfect 10, or even a Prince Charming - because there's no such thing as perfect in this world. An 8 would be more than enough. So, in other words, this book is all about how to find a right guy without being too judgemental because - hey, no one's perfect. If you want a guy who looks a Brad Pitt, then don't expect him to have a decent personality. He's probably arrogant and/or selfish, because he might be in love with himself more. I find it very useful but, again, it got me down. Why? Get this....

I

don't

have

a

freaking

BOYFRIEND

yet...

...plus, I've never gone on a date. I would love to try the Western style of dating. You know, get to know each other first, go on a few dates (probably for months), and you won't even need to declare he's your boyfriend, because it will happen naturally. Plus, it's practically normal for a girl to ask a guy out first. In my generation in this country, however, they see things in other way. Okay, not all, but I can still see the stereotype here.. Okay, probably they would start off by getting to know each other first. But after a few weeks or probably just a few days, the guy would declare, or ask her to "couple". In other words, to be his girlfriend.

Just so you know, this kind of trend that I have to live in is really sad. Really, REALLY sad... Because not only the teens these days just ask out whether they want to 'couple' or not, without even going on a single date and not even knowing them well, it's also quite - how do you say this - ASHAMED for girls to ask the guys out, instead of the other way around. Why?? I don't know... It's just too cliched. I mean I thought of a few times whether I want to confess to my crush that I like him, but if this trend is really true then...bummer. Think about how he will think if I confessed my feelings and asked him out. He'd probably feel inferior as his manlihood is being 'challenged' by another gender. Like, honestly, I even heard of my friends said, "It's the guys who should ask/make the first move first."

*sigh* I guess that explains why I'm still single. I want to at least try to make the first move, but this kind of obstacle is really blocking the way. Okay, sure, I don't to ruin my friendship with him and make it seems awkward after i confess, but STILL! I don't wanna be like those single women who either married late or never get married at all even at their 40s. Heck, even my mom kept asking me, "Don't you have a boyfriend at college?" Again, bummer.....

So yeah, that's just my post. Sorry if it seems too messy and disoriented... I mean, I only write just for the sake of vending out my feelings. The modern life is so hard...seriously....

Another blog i'm STALKING! XD

Well, not really. It's just my sister's blog. And she seemed to post the same thing that I wanna post and she already wrote what I'm gonna write. Hehe, so I hope you enjoy this post:

http://elijojo8989.blogspot.com/2010/07/i-need-girlbad-girl-or-good-girl.html

It's about a new girl band called "Miss A" under JYP's sub-label AQ Entertainment. Before they debut in Korea they were called the Chinese Wonder Girls. But after the members changed (1 of them was Lim who recently joined the Wonder Girls; and 2 left the group), the group doesn't look like their former title after all. Their song is really different than any other girl groups out there. It's not techno and it's not too upbeat. Plus we can hear their vocals very well without the autotune. I highly recommend this group to those who don't like typical girl groups :D

Next is Tae Yang from Big Bang! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! His new song is just CUTE!! Watch the MV with the eng subs and u'll know wat i mean XD <3